I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I just had a second time of coming out in early August. It was tough cuz my wife knew it all along. Just had barely moved with her to Michigan, leaving all of my family and friends behind, in Utah. It was very emotional for me, leaving Utah. I knew that deep down inside that I was Transgender MTF, upon going with her. A 3 day road trip, a new chapter in my life. I had to go to Michigan I guess to really find out if becoming female, was worth pursuing. I love my wife of course, don’t get me wrong. I deeply love her. I fell for her, 4 years ago… got married 5 months after dating. Cuz I loved her… anyway I went to Michigan and helped her fix somethings up around the new house. And during that time I felt really unhappy. Out of place. My feminine side came out more. I broke the news to my wife one day, not too long ago. And she knew that I was hiding it. Even hiding that I’m pansexual, or fluid. Trying to hide it from her. It was so hard. We went through some tough days and nights together. Ups and downs. I slept on the couch and her the bed, our bed that we had together. I’m crying right now as I’m writing this, cuz my marriage is coming to an end. I’m crying cuz I still love her and feel that I always will. I’m now back Utah, pursuing becoming female. I have a Transgender boyfriend. Well let me put it this way, he wants to be called a girl… he’s sensitive about being called a guy. Cuz he was born with childhood gender dysphoria. And is gay. He picked me up from the airport and kissed me… it was the most amazing kiss ever. We both broke up my marriage, cuz honestly we both love each other. We are in love. Have been for 2 years. Even though I still love my wife and always will, it’s nice to have a Transgender boyfriend MTF, to go through my transition also with him. In the end we both will be dykes, lesbians !!!
I have known since second
I’ve know since about seven. I would dress up and ride my bike in the woods to the lake and swim in a bikini and/or shorts. It progressed through out my child hood and into my teens. I wear panties and a bra under my cloths, my pants are girls fit and I wear a lot of t-shirts. At night I like to sleep in a silk mighty with matching panties. I don’t always go out dressed because of facial hair. But I would have rather been born girl.
My earliest memories are from when I was 3.
I remember that I was constantly pushing my genitals inside my body and I hated when they came back out. I’m sure I was already doing that before I can remember.
When I was 9 I became curious on what it was like to be a girl. At 13 I tried on my first pair of women’s underwear and didn’t look back from there. The fabric of women’s clothing is such a relief on my body, I wish I was home alone more often! Then when I’m done with my feminine sessions I go into guy-mode and feel disgusted. Is that a sign of like dual personality or something?
I have known since I was 3 or 4 years old that I wanted to become a cute girl. It has taking a long time, but I now live 24/7 365 as a woman. My one regret is that I could not start living as a girl back when I was 4.
I realized I was a girl very soon, even before having sexual experiences with myself. Suddenly I looked at my mother’s wardrobe, I was like eight or nine years old, and started using her panties all the time – to go to school, to sleep, to socialize with friends and family… I loved to use her skirts and to hide my penis. I became also an excelent makeup artist, using my own face. The most important feminizing process for me was to masturbate moaning like a girl and stimulating myself just with a finger and massaging the base of my “clit” with the legs crossed, hiding it i the back. Don’t forget the lingerie for the time!
Ever since I was young my sexual thoughts would always be gay. But when I was 14 is when I really found out who I was. I looked at myself in the mirror and said “I want girl boobs”. Then that same year I put on my step moms clothes while no one was home and OMG! Everything felt right. I felt so sexy, calm, and I have never been happier in my life! Some things about me have always pointed towards the woman side. Like I have never been that fat, but I still got stretch marks like a girl (I wish I never got them) and I have had larger breasts than normal men, I would even get made fun of sometimes.