I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
Hi Lucille,
I first knew I was a girl at about age 5, when I tried on a neighbor girls’ tutu. It felt totally right to be wearing female clothing.
I always felt different from the other boys, but didn’t know why and didn’t give it much thought. I just went about my business playing baseball, joining the scouts, etc.
My first time wearing female clothes in public was actually in a junior high school play. I was cast as a detective. Part of my role was to disguise myself and one of my disguises was a dress.
On the night of the final show, most of the cast went to a local ice cream shop afterward to celebrate. I said the heck with it and just wore the dress. Most of the other kids were in their costumes too, so it really wasn’t a big deal.
It’s interesting, I was 14, in junior high school and sitting in an ice cream parlor with 20 other kids with absolutely no fear at all about being in “drag”. 40 years later, I own a business, am fairly well known in town, and am slowly and carefully coming out. What did I know at 14 that I don’t know at 54?? lol!
I’ve continued to dress over the years, but it’s only been in the past couple of years that I’ve been in a position to fully pursue becoming the woman I’ve always known I am. I don’t regret that it took so long, but instead I simply look forward to each new day as an opportunity to take another step toward it.
I remember when I was very young, perhaps four or five, that I was watching a romantic movie and there was a closeup of the lovely actress, her makeup perfect, her lips a glossy red, her hair coiffed in a to-die-for style, and I looked over at my mommy and said, “I want to be an actress like her when I grow up.” Well, mommy gave me a half-hearted smile and shook her head. “You can be an actor, like him.” She pointed to the male lead. “But you are a boy, Jaime. You can’t be an actress.” And for the first time in my life, I realized that I had been born into the wrong body, because I didn’t just want to be an actor. I wanted, more than anything else, to be a girl.
I am 77 years old now. I have been dressing since I was 5or 6 years.old.I am happily married but I have a lot of health problems now, arthritis. My wife accepts me as I am. I do go out in public dressed with no problems. I would really like to be all woman. I do love all the info from you and I would to meet with you and talk about life in general.
I noticed at a very early age around five that i was a-girl inside and been living a pure hell ever since but what the hell i,ve got the best of both worlds even though i would be 100 per-cent happy living out the last of my years as a girl in closing I,d love being a girl as that what i,am inside Thank-you.
In my mid teens I think, tried over the years to hide it, to dismiss it, dressed on and off for years! Am nearly 50 and am embracing my femininity so much I am going to dress fulltime as a woman and am loving the journey 🙂
My 1st memory was when I was 3 or 4 years old playing in my Mom’s lingerie drawer…..I remember putting on a girdle. Of course it didn’t fit, but I was fascinated with everything in the drawer. At about 7 or 8 years old, I read an article in one of Mom’s National Enquirer magazines about a male becoming a female and it intrigued me…..I have been cross dressing ever since.
I guess that my female side was there all the time I was growing up, but it didn’t click in, some things I did growing up were very femine, but I was too busy trying to be a boy ( didn’t like sports even though my father wanted me to try playing baseball ) sucked at it. In school different things happened, like we were having a Halloween dress up, but I didn’t have a costume so the teacher made me up to look female with all the make up and a borrowed coat from one of the girls, then we went around to some of the senior classes and I had fun doing it. In high school the English literature teacher did plays and we were give parts for the different sections and I was given the female part, so I acted as one, even though it made me nervous. I joined seacadets and then reserves and for got all about my female side, got a job and then got married (26) years, and then she passed away, ( it has ben 4 years now), so I was just sitting around doing nothing one nite and looked in her part of the closet and decided to try on one of her dresses and every thing else she had and it felt good on my body ( never did like to wear boys clothes) as they didn’t feel comfortable on me. Any way have been dressing up ever since and it makes me feel good, have also done make up, whigs ( now have 4 of them ) I have some friends and have been out to them a couple of times, and they think I look good. They were kinds shocked and surprised at first, but I didn’t care, I was being me. I wish that I had the money to transition all the way (I wear breast forms when female 42 d and I do tuck so I can wear female underwear. Any way that is it for now.
Camille
Before I was even 10 years old. I would sneak through my mom’s panty drawer. I’ve tried to ” give it up” but only to find myself in some bras and panties the next day.lol