I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I knew when I was 4 yet had to hide until I was 50 taking care of my dad then my mom admitted I was her daughter. It was hell for those years getting beaten everyday. Now I take massive doses of hormones and when she passes will sell the house to pay for my surgery to undo what nature cruelly did to me. Some transsexuals say that I am still a man on some websites being cruel but I know inside what I am and always will be. I tried to die several times I know what it feels like to want to end. I always ask God why did you make me this way? I still have no answers. Linda Q
My Epiphany came quite suddenly. A girl I was dating (suspected she might be trans) invited me to a meeting she thought I might be interested in. I went. There were about 20 mtf’s there. I felt at home instantly. I was called SHE for the first time and it felt so RIGHT. I was dressed in pants and sport shirt, had long hair, may have worn one of the wigs I had worn for the previous 8 years.
That night I reviewed my life (I was 72) and realized that I have always been a female person as far back as I can remember, but I was so dense I just didn’t realize it. Back then we had no internet, no other source of information about us. I didn’t even know people could be transexual.
I never lived another day after that night as a pretend male. Went to dinner the next night with my sister wearing a skirt I had bought along with filly panties on a “whim” while out shopping at Ross a few months earlier with my longtime gg friend. I just WANTED them, and didn’t know why.
I had an incident in 1993 when I was accompanying my live in platonic girlfriend I had fallen in love with in 1984, wherein we were at a big girls shop and while she was trying on some clothes, I saw this beautiful white dress. And for reasons at that time unknown to me…..I would have died to have that dress…I wanted it so bad. Had no clue yet as to why.
When I was 3 I had long hair and up to when I had it cut at 4 or 5, people used to tell my mother what a beautiful little girl I was.
At 4 or 5 I used to play dolls with my sister. In Elementary school until the 6th grade when they wouldn’t allow it, I always played with the girls and they accepted as one of them, not as a boy. Again I had no clue as to the meaning.
At 10 I borrowed my sister’s skirt to play Greek Soldier since I knew they wore skirts…again no clue as to why.
At 13, my sister borrowed my pants without my permission so I went to her closet and took out one of her dresses and wore it all day, even around my friends, and ate watermelon in it in the backyard while talking to my friends. I told them why I was wearing it. I felt comfortable in it, and actually liked it.
At age 10 for Halloween I dressed up as a girl with a scarf over my head and my sister’s clothes and wore them all day. I was very mad that the teacher fortune teller at school could tell I was a boy.
My dating from 14 to 23 was not a male pattern of dating but a female pattern. I still love every girl I had a relation with, and am still in touch after 58 years with my first true love.
I never was comfortable around men, but always hung out with women whenever I could. At jury duty I was the only “man” sitting in a pew with 15 or so women. The bailiff teased me about me. One of the girls asked for my phone number but I was married so I never called her.
I never cared anything for sports except baseball, and at 14 and 15 had my own teams I owned and recruited for in both 14 under and 17 under City sponsored and Red Shield (Salvation Army) leagues. I had 3 teams going at one time, one hardball and two softball. That is the only activity I did involving a group of males.
I believe myself to be XXY, Klinefelter’s syndrome as this body has so many feminine characteristics which allow me to completely and always be the woman I am. I intend to have this verified with a blood test within a year.
Since my transition on July 2, 2007, I have been employed twice by the federal government on Census, and then by a corporation all as a woman.
Thank God I got my female ID marker by just asking for it. Only the 2nd one in the state that I or anyone else knows of. Last year they changed their rules so any of us living female can get it now.
I honestly think I would have killed myself if I had not gotten it.
I used the Feminization Program to increase my breast growth from 2007 to 2011 when I started HRT which really made them grow more, and now I am a FULL B.
I love jewelry, shopping for clothes, use little makeup, not really needed, usually wear lipstick. Have 13 or so wigs in red, blonde, platinum, lavender and purple, and black, and have recently decided that I no longer care if people at work know I wear wigs, so now I vary them. It took me a while to get that confidence. Everyone thought my short red wigs were my own hair.
Few people other than the ones who knew me before know that I am a transwoman. I live as any other woman. I have lived with my tgirl girlfriend since Sept 2007 and love her dearly.
I when i had a girly side when i would get dress up in my sisters dresses and a friend would call me a make an appointment in her make shop and i would walk out with make on and i like to wear make
HI LUCILLE! at the age of 12 my mother dressed me up to go to a party at a school. it did not change me in any way, except the silky panties and silk slip rubbing against my body did give me a strange sensation. it was not untill I turned 35 when I was invited to a house warming party. little did I know that all the people there where crossdressers. serveral days later I bought my first dress and eventually womens underware and high heels. so now that is what I wear every day but only at home. I have not yet found the nerve to go out in public as a woman. for about 30 years I have been in the closet. the main reason is that I do not know how to apply makeup. when I communicate with people on the internet I go by the name of CHELSY. THANK you for letting me express my situation BEST REGARDS CHELSY.
Hi Lucille,
I think with me it was the other way round. Let me explain. I have always felt myself to be a girl/woman. The usual stories about wearing my mother’s/sister’s clothes, all true I admit. When you are that young you are blissfully unaware of the reasons and the problems which lay ahead.
Most of my friends back then were girls and continued to be until reaching puberty, when you start to become sexually aware. My friends started to take an interest in boys. This was wake up time. It was at this point that I realised I was not a girl, but I did not feel that I was a boy either. I too started to take an interest in boys, but unlike girls I did not have the biological attributes to develop a relationship with them. I buried those feelings for a very long time and started to rebuild my life as a boy/man. This became more difficult as time went on because the girl now blossoming woman within was getting stronger. Eventually, in my early to mid 20’s I sought medical advice and set upon my journey into womanhood. I am happy now living/working my life as a woman (I prefer the term Female, but hey, that’s just me).
Love Helen.
I hope I have the success you had, you turned out beautiful
WOW Miss Helen, you are beautiful!
For about 11 years when I was in my high school
I’ve always been more feminine
Snuck moms clothes as a kid
After I moved out I bought all kinds of clothes
And wore them around the house
But I wasn’t happy with myself still
I knew I was happier as a woman but my weight
Was so high I didn’t feel right as a woman either
I just wasn’t happy with myself
This year however I had gastric bypass. Lost 160 lbs
So far and look much better and I’m finally getting to
The point I’m happy
So much so I started seeing a therapist about
transistioning, all my dr’s now know and only see Sandra
Now. I’m told I’m passable but I don’t think so personally
My family and friends know now
Except for my dad all have been very supportive
Dad is coming around slowly, at least he talks to me now.
I started hormones a month ago
Big step is this week, I’m talking to my boss about transistioning.
Already talked to HR and they are on board
I want this to go as well as it can and to make sure others
Are as comfortable as possible.
If all goes well by the first of the year. doug will leave work and Sandra will start
So now at 47 years old I can finally be happy
And live life as god intended me too
I has asked why god gave me a male body but the heart and mind of a woman
I think the answer was for me to find what I wanted
My life to be and make it happen myself
I knew I had a girly side to me when I was about 7 years old. I used to dress in my mums baby doll nightie and parade about in front of my sisters. They used to do my hair and make up. Then I borrowed a satin jump suit from my mum again and used to sleep in it. Till my mum caught me and told me to take it off. Since then I have been dressing in private. That was 40 years ago.