I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I wanted to be a baby girl when I was about five years old. My friends mom, sown the street helped me to be a baby girl. She had three boys and desparately wanted a girl, so I became her baby girl. She would ask me to come in an be her baby girl when no one was home except her and her baby boy. I started out as her baby girl and over a period of four years I became her little girl. I loved it! We moved away after school that year but I still wanted to be a girl but could only be one in private.
Probably in early elementary school my mom “caught” me in her clothes, I was told it was wrong and not to do it again, which I listened to until my 20’s, did not forget but did not act upon until later. When I’m home I’m probably 60 to 70 % female but out that will drop to around 50%, what is nice in todays’ world there are a great deal of gender neutral clothes which helps a great deal.
I’ve known about it but have denied it of myself for a ling time. Mist of my friends growing up were girls I’ve always been more comfortable with the females and very fearful and intimidated around males. It was the harassment and the religious doctrine of family that made me hide myself starting around age 6-8. I never let myself experience my femininity, I’ve lived a life being all male all the time, and hurting daily. Yeah I’ve been suicidal filled with self loathing and disgust from the things I was taught. It took years and tons of self discovery and self realization, I’ve finally gained the strength to come out at 42! I’m female inside I identify more strongly with female values. Now that I’m allowing myself to experience her my emotions are heightened and my smile stays with me far longer and dancing comes so much easier! I locked my joy away with her, I found it again. Still trying to figure out how to be me, still feel the guy sometimes, dont know what that makes me but I’m getting to know the woman I am much more. Thanks for the help Lucille and much love and blessing and Hope’s of strength and support to all my other ladies out there still struggling with identity and dysphoria… hang in and dont give up! I love you all! Myha
12 years old.Now that I am older I am getting know the woman inside me.Since a young age I have had a love for female fashion,make up.Sooner or later I will come out.
I can remember very clearly when I had feminine feelings and wanted to dress as a girl. I was 7-8 years old but like alot of other transgender girls it wasnt until i was in my teenage years did my feelings begin to become strong emotions and feelings and continued in my 20’s stronger until I wanted to experience emotional and sexual experiences with guys.
Today I feel I have embraced my femininity and accepted who I am. For me it is more than just the clothes and make up etc, it is how I feel think and behave as a girl.
I suppose having to courage to accept a inner person that is the real me is the hardest thing but at teh end of teh end so satisifying and fulfilling for me as a feminine girl.
I totally relate to what you just said about yourself mine is much the same and I think you are beautiful❤️
I found out when I was aged about 8. My parents went out with friends on Friday nights and left me with their daughter aged about 13. One time I was messing about and she had a go at me, was stronger and bigger than me and overpowered me. She said I was weak, like a girl and as that was the case she was going to dress me like one. She told me to get undressed and before long I was wearing a full girls outfit. Little did she know that her “punishment” was heavenly but after a few girly Fridays she worked out that I loved it. This continued until I was about 13 and she just loved the control she had over me – she still has that control but it’s an occasional thing with her now. She did, however, introduce me to the joys of female clothing.
Well, Lucile, that’s an easy one, at primary school I identified with the girls rather than boys, I wasn’t in to rough games, I liked more thoughtful pursuits, I had four girl friends who I loved being with,in fact we were inseparable!
Nicky, Janet, Sam, Lisa, and me, we spent many happy summer hours making daisy chains, lying on our backs painting pictures with the clouds, telling each other stories,playing hop scotch and even skipping rope!
I also went to their homes after school quite often, and we used to play dress up, so I think I had very few doubts at that age, to bad secondary school without them complicated matters!
I am now in my 50’s and dress at every opportunity, I realised a long while ago that my feminine side is the real me, it’s where all my energy and motivation stems from, and my only regret is that I didn’t connect with her sooner, I think my life would have been a lot more fun as Julie, she’s such a great girl!
Been feeling odd for a long time. I don’t think there is one particular moment. But I do remember a dream when I went through a machine that changed my gender. I also started to wear my sister’s swimsuit when I was a teenager. It was not until I got married and my ex used to like dressing me femme that things kind of started to coalesce. Now I dream about being able to get pregnant and give birth to a son or daughter (which I know is impossible).