I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
Hi Lucille,
Not sure I can view the video in Europe. Never mind.
I was five or six when I discovered a difference that mattered. Up to then I was just bumbling along with feelings of wrongness, which I still remember quite clearly nearly 70 years later. Then I met a girl in the street who was much older than me and she was just so obviously what I wanted to be. So then I discovered that hair length and skirts or trousers were not the only differences between boys and girls.
Before then, I had my first hair-cut and had no idea why I screamed and screamed at the barber to leave it alone (my hair, that is). I just wanted my hair as it was, curly and long.
I was also taken for new “grown-up” shoes, replacing my nice simple and comfy “button-ups” with horrible clumpy lace-up things.
I had no idea why I was so upset by these things until I met that 11 year old girl and realised that my parents had made a mistake and I should be a girl ! That was how I saw it. So, “Can I be a girl, please mummy?”
All my best friends were girls then. I just had nothing much in common with the boys I knew.
Oh dear, oh dear. Within a year I was packed off to boarding school! Nuff said really.
Thirty years later (in the early 1970s), I tried to get medical support and help but the UK National Health Service was pretty dismissive in those days (where I was anyway) and even the private psychiatrist I saw was expensively useless and very dismissive.
Eventually, in the 1990s, I could not stand it much longer and found some real experts around who have helped me survive my older age in a happier frame of mind.
Gen
Hi Lucille and Everyone,
I’ve known I was as much female as male from the very beginning of my life. When I was old enough to hear, my mother told me that during her pregnancy she just knew that her unborn baby- me- was a girl, and that’s how she treated me- up until I was about 2 years old, when my Dad got back from the war in Korea. He furiously forbid my mother to dress and treat me as a girl anymore, and that’s when all the trouble began. But by then it was too late; the pattern of my essentially female identity had been set. Still, no denying it, I was born a genetic male, and after my father’s order, was treated as such by my parents. Deeply, deeply confusing!
I am so sympathetic to anyone with gender conflicts. We all have to be who we are. Any other kind of life is just a terrible lie.
xxxxx0000000 to all my brothers and sisters!
In the early ages, it must have been when i was eight. But the strict society had no room for such feelings. So i buried it until it popped up big times in the mid 30.
i have known since i was 5 that i was a girl.i started wearing my sisters school uniform and as i got older i stole some of the neighbors clothes. i would go hide under some of the city’s bridges and dress up then go into town dressed that way. in high school my girlfriend caught me doing this and from that day forward we were sisters. she is the one that taught me to be the woman i am today may she rest in peace. love ya monigue
I was in my early teens when I began to question if I had been born with the wrong body, I had to hide my dressing early on because my mother did not approve, she grew more accepting though when I reached my twenties.
You have all the tangibles to be successful, including the fact that you are beautiful
Hi Lucille
I seem to remember as early as 3 or 4 feelings that something wasn’t right. I look back at pictures from then and I can see a little girl. Playing with dolls and generally shying away from masculin games. Later in life I did what is common in the transgender world and compensated for all my feelings and covering my fem side. Marriage, Kids and macho male dominated job etc. which have all left me with a regret filled life. Living in no where Northern Ontario Canada Transexuals are not the norm and fround upon so I have led my life for everyone else. I’m sure that transgenderism is 75 % genetics but the other is enviroment. I am possitive that if I was in the right enviroment I would be now the woman i’ve always dream’t I should be.
Thanks
Love Always
Shannon Steels xoxoxo
when i was about five olds old knew was different and wanting to wear girls clothes back in the sixties .the girls wore such beautiful clothes like ruffle panties ,petticoats ,pretty dresses,lacy anklets ,bows and ribbons in their hair,and cute shoes.i wanted to dress like that myself .at recess had to play with other boys but wish i was playing with the girls and dressed like they were.i have been a crossdresser my whole life and in private wear girls clothes and womens clothes when ever i can .the clothes feel wonderful on and makes me feel feminine and relax .
I started wearing my moms stockings and heels at the age of 10. I never wanted to be a girl I just loved being in womens clothing. Now at the age of 34 I want to be with a man when dressed as girl but I still love girls.