I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I was 16 when my then 15 yo neighbor Barb and her 18 yo sister Tammy both already aware I was into boy dating over girl dating…..did a fem makeover to me to see if I’d look more appealing as a special girl….so with a top and skirt and undies and shoes from Tammy and a borrowed mid length auburn wig and make-up from their mom’s room…Tiffany (my original name) was born and I played around like this till I was 18 just at their house…At 18 I went out as Tiffany and hung out near known areas other tv’s/cd’s hung at till about 25…..then because of location, lack of money to get dressed right, or my living situation Tiffany kinda retired until about my late 30’s when my feminine feelings finally won over my inner battles and Mandy Ann began to be invented….It has been a struggle though as situations get in the way but I try to be Mandy as much as I can and have been taking some herbs associated with breast growth off and on and due have a set of soft itty bitty’s that look good in a nice tight top or half cup bra……..I am trying to eventually live and grow more into femininity 24/7.
Hi Lucille:
I guess it was about 4 or 5 yrs old.
I was aways with the other little girls at
recess at school, when the boy were out playing ball or ruff housing I was with the
girls playing hop scotch, jacks, tether ball jump rope. After school was the same.
My parents thought I would grow out of my unusual ways but I never did.
Denise
When I was 7 years old. I would play with my friend Claudia. She lived next door. I told her I did not want my penis and wanted to look like her down there. I would hide my penis and she would give me her panties to wear. She and I were friends until she moved at age 16. I grew my hair longish continued trying to become more feminine my whole life. I was continually looking to find ways to be more femine looking. I started sneaking out completely dressed as a gril at age 12 with Claudia. I would go to the mall and other places and no one ever knew I was a boy. We would flirt with the boys all the time. Sometimes we would meet guys we liked and would kiss amd make out with them. When I was 15 I went to the movies and met a boy there he was 17. We were in his car talking later and he started kissing me and trying to feel me. He was suprised but he was so turned on he did not care, and I gave him a blow job. My first. He and I would see each other on weekends as he lived in the next town. He was the first to have sex with me. We had sex alot and I always was his girl looking in to his sexy brown eyes while on my back. He looked so sexy and I felt very complete when I watched his face as he would cum in me. I actually worried I was going to get pregnant from him cumming in me. I have never had sex with a man other than as a female role.
Today I am just a average feminine looking guy who has come to grips with the fact I will never be a woman. I still enjoy dressing and going out. Who knows, perhaps with the medical advances in stem cell research one day I could look like I have always known I should. In the mean time live a happy life with what I have.
Thank You
Lynnete
My first recollections of it are at 4, and by 10 I knew but didn’t have a term for it, and by the end of highschool I knew the term. I think it’s very possible for people to be confused, because you do hear about people going all the way to gender reassignment and then having it a second time to go back. While I give kids a lot of faith, and while I personally knew, I also think its possible that some kids could be confused, too.
And I know it still would be hard as heck for a kid to come forward with this to their parents, in the vast majority of cases, which tends to confuse things even more. Other kids tend to be one of the least accepting and tolerant groups on the planet, and something like this — it’s a gold mine for them to go after you.
I’m not really sure either,when I figured out I was “different.” I really never connected with anyone,even my own family. One day,I was the now infamous “Looney Tunes” short,known as “The Big Snooze.” Until then,I’d never seen any cartoons from the 40’s. It was…interesting,to say the least. Most of seemed normal,I suppose…then out of the blue,Elmer slammed into the ground,stood up and vented his anger at “the wabbit”,and Bugs knew..”okay,time to REALLY get crazy!” The sight of Elmer,standing still,moving a portion of his svelte frame,as he pleadingly asked a portion of the audience,for advice on dealing w/his “pretty predicament”,had an impact on me. I wondered what it would be like to be a cartoon,and manipulated so,by my nemesis.
I have known since early childhood…Though then there was little that could be done. The subject was pretty much Taboo in any home…
The signs have always been their. Most just dont see it( Except thoughs of us who are affected by it…Family plays it off as a passing fase we go through.
When i was 7 years old i suffered from severe stomach cramps, family treated it with milk of magnisia. At age 19 same cramps were back.This time i went to see a doctor.
He ran test,exrays and ultrasounds to see what was happening.
Then the news(for good or bad). My chromasonal rating was 47xxy, and the cramps i was suffering from was the uterus deterierating, surgery was performed to remove it. At this time he had discovered the remains of the overies, which had deterierated some time before( the cramps at age 7).
Higth wise i am 5’10”. Have always had an hourglass shape. when puberty came, i developed small breast, and had an hourglass shape, my voice has always been more in the female rang, and have always been mistaken for a girl when talking on the phone.
True this is an intersexed condition, but we are also a part of the transgender world….
Since the Harry Benjemine standards of care was estabelished there has been good that has come for the transsexual…But their has also been bad that has come from it…Because of the satndards of care, their has been very little research done to find why this happens and even less done to try and correct it at the earliest stagesof childhood…..Children know who and what they are, it is socity that says we dont….socity dont know us, they see just two boxes,’Male’ and ‘Female’ Nothing in between.
With all the birth defects there is in this world, and are accepted. Why not this one….Innersexed,transsexual,etc. we are just that. We are all born with a birth defect,every person on the planet,we are all intersexed to a point. girls have a trace amount of testosterone in their bodies, boys have trace amounts of estrogen, these levels increase and decrease everyday.
Science has proven this to the world, and still no changes in acceptance.
I for one am thankful for the few people we have on our side, and the ones trying to make the changes we all need to live normal lives.
Science has proven that the female body is the stock form of the human body, this is why it takes time to see whether a fetus is male or female. for some of us their was a mixup and our bodies followed the wrong path of development.
To answer the Qusetion….I have known since early childhood(3 or 4 years old). I have always like and wanted dresses that were covered in lace and frills…..I have always been able to connect better with girls and understand them better….I spent my childhood trying to copy what the boys in our neiborhood would do…In order to try and fit in….
My mother has a photo of a child’s painted fingernails (about 6 or 7) coming through an old style wringer on a washing machine! That’s me. My father was taking pictures of me helping mom wash clothes. I always insisted on having nail polish when mom put her own on. No damage was done but we still remember that incident. I started dressing in secret, because mom always resisted when I would hold her things up to my body and ask how I would look in this or that dress or bra etc. I especially liked staying at my cousin’s house because even though my cousin was a year older than me, he had a sister 1 year older than him and one the same age I was. The house was big and I could always hide somewhere and wear the girls clothes I would pilfer from the dirty clothes hamper. I later joined the service as many of us do, to try and deny ourselves or prove something to ourselves, got married, have two boys I’m very proud of, and lost my wife to a heart attack after 23 years of marriage. I never lost the urge to be female and unlike Jackie in the story I was never brave enough to out myself and be who I truly wanted to be. Here I am pushing 60 and now I have breasts thanks in part to you Lucille and dress how I want to in the evening after work. I wear extra large shirts at work to hide my body and have given up being anything but a guy in a dress. But I must say I am more at peace now, with myself, than I ever was in the past. Maybe in the next life! Thanks for listening and being there for all of us!
zeta
I have known about my being a girl since the age of 7. My older cousin noticed that I walked on my tip toes as a child almost mimicking the high heels walk. Also as a child my passive behavior led some to believe that I had a low male hormonal level. As an adult I have embraced my gynodysphoria and my live half time en femme. My desire is to one day be FT and know absolutely everything there is to know about being feminine.
Having feminizationsecrets.com as a source has helped and I enjoy reading the links on the subtle things about being a woman that even genetic women do not know. Thanks Lucille for the wonderful information. Keep it coming! Love, Lynn Amanda