I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
upto the age 0f 5 yrs I was dressed in a girls dress withot a haircut and treated as agirl since my mother wanted a girl child, after the son she had already. and after that I forgot about it, and at the age of 36, after i had 2 kids, i started to feel like a woman and started dressing up in secrete and later with my wife’s knowledge and active cooperation, with a condition that other than her nobody should now about it and when dressed I showkd do all the house work including cooking and cleaning. Now i have discarded all my men’s underwear and use panty and camisole and sometimes even a bra under my male dress. and when my kids r not at home, there will be complete role reversal house maid gets off or only during her visit i wear a male dress (a lungi and a loose shirt) over my saree, blouse and i have to do all the house work and she will me the man of the house and lord over me which i love
Hi,
I knew at a very early age.
I started trying on my Mothers girdles and bra’s and just loved the feeling especially when I got to try
on her lipstick.
I was also very small and the other boys liked to get close to me and I wasn’t very athletic which didn’t help.
I like to feel feminine,
Sandy
I knew I was “different” since I was about 2. Didn’t know I was TS until I was about 40, only because I didn’t know enough about it. But I always preferred to play with the girls. The boys beat me up every day. Always thought “the right girl” would make everything change. I wouldn’t have the urge to dress or be accepted as a woman. Boy, was I wrong! In my 40’s I began to transition. It is the best decision I ever made!
I was about 12 when I knew something was strange . I started to wear my sisters clothes and moms bra . I also started to play girly games . As time went on I started to wish I could change my sex . When I found your site it all came togeather and never looked back . My breast are a 38b and hope to get to a 40 d . They are at a stand still right now but am starting to feel them grow again with iching and tendernes . Had me worried but things are starting up again .
Hi Ronalda,
You have an amazing body, is this through following ‘Lucilles regime’,and how long did it take-you are fabulous? I have been following the ‘Flat to Fem’ program for the last 2/3 years and can now wear a 38B bra but only just,I think my advancing years are slowing me down, but I shall persevere. Just love your photo!!!
WHAT A BEUTIFUL GIRL YOU YURNED OUT TO BE!!
Lucille, This is perhaps the most interesting question you have ever ask, I have pondered my answer for several days. I have memories at about age 3 of wishing I had been born a girl. Some where at around that age I heard someone make the comment that if you could kiss your elbow you would turn into a girl. I remember that for several years I almost broke my arm every morning and night trying to kiss my elbow till I finally figured out it could not be done. Isn’t that silly? I have an older sister who I was so envious of. In fact I was envious of all girls. I spent a somewhat normal childhood with loving parents who perhaps suspected my desires but the subject was never brought up. It was a subject that was not discussed in the late forties and fifties. I must mention that I truly believe, both then and now, that if I had been born a girl, I would have been a lesbian. I have loved girls and women and all that they are all my life. While I was living at home and was alone I would dress in either my sister’s or Mother’s clothing. I have been married twice. Both of my wives have been extremly feminine ladies. My first wife to whom I was married for over 30 years knew of my desires but could not accept it. So I continued to do it in hotel rooms. She died of cancer. I told my second wife of my desires before we married and although she was not familiar at the time with my desires she totally accepts it and almost since day one I have spent my time in feminine clothing and in feminine guise. She totally accepts me as Susan and we do everything together as girlfriends. On rare occasions I accompany her in male mode and she enjoys me in male mode in bed
If there is such a thing as re-incarnation, I hope God allows me to come back as a girl and that He instills in me the love of all things feminine that he instilled in me in this life.
God Bless, Susan H.
Hello All,
I knew something was very wrong at a very young age, heck I always felt out of place and I finally figured it out about 6 or 7 years of age. Of course that was not accepted at that time and I had a really hard time till I learned to hide my real self from everyone and put up a front that was acceptable.
That worked real well until the day that I could not tolerate it anymore. My life and charade started to crumble and I thought my sanity was totally lost. I was ready and willing to do myself in and get it over with, I couldn’t be me and I couldn’t put up with the charade anymore. If I couldn’t be me than that was that I would end it.
I found help as it was and they worked with me to let me be me. It is not done yet and won’t be foe several years but every day I become more and more who I was meant to be, or at least as close as I can get, I will never be complete but I may be allowed to be happy, to be me.
My salvation was really very close to not happening, probably within hours of being too late. Sadly a lot of T-girls never make it, they never get the helping hand that would save their lives, and no one knows the pain they were in, nor that it was not necessary that they be that way. Truly sad.
Pretty much at a very early age I think, as I was drawn towards womens clothes as a young child, and my mannerisms were always a little feminine too.
Later on,I discovered that my speech pattern was very much like a womans.I never really tried to be that way, it just seemed natural.
I was always able to relate to other females easily too, I believe they never sensed me as a male threat and we would talk for hours about whatever.
Looking back, I always knew that I was a girl. Like many others, I felt the world move when I went to kindergarten. I kept sitting with the girls naturally, because that’s where I belonged. Some girls smiled at me and were friendly, but eventually domineering children started to push and bully me into the boy’s side of the room. At playtime some girls said not to worry they’d get me back onto the correct side with them. Obviously, the female teachers were divided about what to do. That is also when I had strong lessons from arrogant individuals who were threatened by my obstinant insistence that I knew what was best for me.Over my lifetime, I have learnt how to mentally deal with societal stereotypes. I appear androgenous in public and am accepted enfemme at home. My significant other loves Janie when she is a little covert, but occasionally, struggles when Janie asserts herself. However, recently, we were window shopping in city retail district and she lead me to all the feminine girly shops showing me Spring dresses and saying..”Oh! I bet this one would fit you perfectly”. “Oh! This style and pattern is just you isn’t it?” & “I know you so love the pretty floral patterned material and the lace lined sleeves and collar”.Life is full of surprises! My S.O. just loves taking Janie shopping as I have a wonderful eye for the feminine. Ironically, Janie has to support her S.O. who is a plain Jane and is strangely clueless about being a genetic girl. She is just so practical!!!LOL. I am so content as one girl in a house of three. Things are progressing too steadily for my liking though. My impatience is an agony from time to time. Last great venture was… we both share the same hairdressers. I have now the most feminine hairdo and colour to match my accessories and my spirits are high. A girl has to spoil herself to help her ego. I have so many stories too tell that I must start writing my story before it is too late. Modern technology has made our community stronger and resiliant. My trip has been so emotional. I love to read how other girls have felt and I relate to your emotional narratives. In my opinion, our psychological strength & wellbeing is of the greatest import. Thankyou Lucille for giving us a site and topic to express ourselves. This is most helpful and uplifting. Love to you and all our sisters globally. Peace and warmth, Janie