I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
Hi Lucille,
I have an older brother and I learned that mother always wanted a girl next and I came along, unfortunately for her a boy. But in the late 40’s all babies were dressed as little girls for the first 12/18 months and I was no exception. I had at that very early age very girly features and most friends of mothers who looked into my pram apparantly said ‘Oh what a pretty little girl’. Mother told me all this when I was quite young but old enough to understand and remember. As we were in a time of rationing(after the war) and clothes tended to be passed around through mothers friends and I continued to be dressed in some clothing which was definitely originally intended for a girl this continued until I was about 5 as far as I can recall. I experienced even then a ‘special’ feeling when I wore any of my girls clothes. Although I probably didn’t understand why.
One particular girls brown rubberised cotton mac which had a hood, which i used to like wearing up as it made me look like a girl, and I found that a real thrill.
I suppose as I grew my parents started to insist that I wear only boys clothing and conform to being what a little boys is supposed to be.
I can also vividly remember at about 11/12 feeling very envious of girls on our school bus (I went to boys only schools). They wore virtually the same uniform as me apart from skirts instead of shorts and blazers which buttoned the opposite way and that universal garment the double breasted gaberdine mac, except the girls had a hood and the boys didn’t. This was the very first piece of girls clothing I bought for myself, having saved up my pocket money and plucked up the courage to make the purchase of a hood for my mac, I felt like a girl wearing it on the school bus like the other girls. So I started young and have never stopped, following the ‘Flat to Fem programe’ and developing a substantial wardrobe.
I was dressed by my sisters as a girl when I was very young, perhaps three or so, and distinctly remember it feeling right. By 5 I was acting and dressing girly learning to cook and sew and knit and everything girls needed to know to become women from that age perspective. By twelve I perfectly fit my mothers clothes and dressed in her work outfits in secret, even wore her heels and grew my hair out. As a teen I longed to be a girl like my neighbor Canda who began developing her breasts and hips… I was so jealous of her. I knew nothing about transsexualism in the 70s so my testosterone poisoning began. I began acting on my transition at age 38 but at a very slow pace… 10 years later, I still live in two worlds but will complete my non-op transition in the next two years and live full time after that in my new town.
I first knew my body was wrong at age 3. But back in the 50’s if you had male plumbing then you were a boy. I tried to tell everyone they were wrong nut my grandmother only said “I wish you were a girl I would raise you different than your mother”. So I spent almost 50 years hiding my self until my last wife asked 2 favors of me. She made me promise to honor my mother and father by changing my last name back to my birth name. I am trying to raise the money to do that. And She made me promise to be true to my self, when she said that I asked her if she really knew what she was asking? Her answer was that “If I hadn’t known what you are I would not have married you”. 2 spirits in one body married to one. Eternal Love knows no boundaries.
I had no clue until just after my 55th birthday! I never even liked to dress up on Halloween! Being someone other than who I thought I was at any time was just beyond any possibility. Then one conversation, one smile, one “try it”, and suddenly there was Tina, so very clear! Pretty amazing!
I knew I was different at a young age when other boys in school were acting tough I was thinking they were stupid, but a little attactive. And would rather play with the girls. I am the middle child in my family and the only boy being raised with 2 sisters I would always dress in there clothes and we would paint my nails and do my hair which I enjoyed. Plus I seemed to have a way of always getting into my grandmas perfume and make up when ever I was at her home and wearing it or into my aunts clothes when I would sleep over at my cousins homes. I even would play home with my cousins and play the part of a girl or mother. As time pasted I became more manly acting and a closet dresser and still do. I dream of someday coming out to the world that I want to be a women, but right now I am married with 4 lovely girls. And am too scared to tell my family my secret. I fear losing everything and all I love. I will some day become the women I so desperately want to be and it is with the help and support of stuff like this that is getting me closer to reveiling my secret.
Thanks,
Kelly
Hi; I first noticed that I was a girl was in Kindergarden in 1957 (I’m now 60). I was forced to use the wrong bathroom althought my outer anatomy showed otherwise. I knew that I was a girl in mind and did fit in to the boys world from then on. Only larter on 1970+ that I found out that I was wright to think fem and that it was correct to be on the outside what I was on the inside and that I could fit in with the rest of the world and become happy with me. Josie
Lucille;
My earliest memory takes me to about the age of 5 or 6 when I would love to watch movies of the roman and greek era where the men of that day would wear skirts and dresses. Oddly enough I rather enjoy being male and masculine, but there is another side to me that very much loves to express my femininity. I remember as a teenager one day putting on a pair of my mother’s pantyhose and wearing them under my jeans. My twin brother outted me in front of my mother while we were all sitting watching TV one day. He looked down at my ankle and blurted out “ooh,you’re wearing stockings!” I could have simply put on socks to cover my ankle, but I think even then I wanted desparately be feminine in public and to be discovered doing so. As time past I moved closer to being bold enough to wearing female clothing in public. I have transcended from wearing feminine panties made especially for men to unabashedly going to a retail store and buying lingerie and other female clothing and makeup. Albeit, I do not have feminine features, that doesn’t keep me from feeling very liberated when I put my makeup, miniskirt, and heels on and hit the gay clubs.
Hi Lucille;
I got started on female clothing at 10. I have 2 older sisters and later had 3 younger
ones so i had lots of choices and in lots of sizes,colors. dressed alot on holloween as a girl allways in a dress,panties,bra,wig,nothing over a 2 inch heel till i was older. Now I can have a wider amount of choices with the internet and i will go also to a mall or store and not think twice about picking somethine up i like their.
I realy love things all feminine well except
that time of the month for the gg girls.
Celine