I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
Hi Lucille,
My story isn’t unique.
I was maybe five. I can’t say I knew but I loved looking at catalogues, not for toys but girls clothes. Always wishing but never asking out of fear.
By the time I was eight or nine I prayed every night to wake up a girl.
Of course, that never happened and I began to live in denial, believing myself to be ugly and getting more introverted daily. Being like this is not a choice. Who would live like this purposely?
This sense of being female and disliking my male appearance got stronger as I aged. Puberty was pure hell. Being attracted to girls made things more confusing. I had no idea there were others like me in this world until I was almost thirty.
Now, a long time afterwards, I wish for courage and the ability to turn back time. I still live alone in all of this but do try to live with it. Hopefully I am not a huge public sideshow when I try to be outwardly female.
Bobbi
i first new i was a girl when i was about three my mum caught me wearing her pantyhose,i dont know why i did it but it just felt right.from then on years of self denial until now when i know who i am just hope people can accept me xx
Hi girls – great question and wondering if others had this experience – around age 6 or 7, I started making drawing over and over of myself, as a little boy, as realistic as possible, but for some reason kept adding heavy make-up, long hair, bra, stocking heels – parents saw me and told me to stop — later I used to lock myself in bathroom when parents were fighting and discovered my mother’s corsets, stocking drying on rack, felt so right from first time I tried – I also found there was a magazine I had to have, didn’t know what it was, ran home heart pounding to open it, it was “female impersonators” — Then I used to do the towel thing, turn one into mini, one bra, one big hair and swish around the house — I also had a strange dream where I almost came waking to find my erection was inside the white bikini of girl i was following – and i knew for sure when guys my age started passing around playboys for masturbation sessions and while they got so hot i imagined being the centerfold! love yr feedback – felicia
Hello Lucille,
I remember when I was about 5 years old we rented a room with another family and that a their daughter dressed me up in a long black skirt and a lacy white top. I didn’t really want to dress up at this time. When my mom, dad and her mom, and dad saw me there was a lot of fuss made. They teased me and made a lot of comments about me being dressed like a girl.
I remember when we moved to our own home that I thought that I would rather grow up to be a girl than a boy. At that time I thought that if you were brought up in dresses that you would become a woman and that if you were brought up in pants that you would become a man. I asked my mother if I could wear dresses. She was a little shocked at first but said that If I wanted to that I could. A couple of days later when we were out shopping I admired a dress in a store window. My mother took me inside and had me try on the dress and then she bought it for me. In time I had several dresses and would wear them at home and on several occassions we would go out shopping or to the park while I was dressed as a girl. This went on for a couple of years but in time I had to attend a catholic school. The principal who was a num discussed dress code with my mother. I remember my mother having quite a duscussion with the principal about whether a boy could wear a dress to school. The nun told her that this was a sin and should never be done at school or at home. This was the end of her allowing me to dress as a girl. From then on I dressed up in secret and was caught several times and scolded. I had a very dificult time understanding why it was ok before but not now. The desire to be feminine has never gone away and until recently I thought that I was a very sick individual and kept all my feelings bottled up inside me and well hidden. I began to see a counsellor about ten years ago (I’m over 60 now) and at this time I finally have some confidence in myself as a human being and feel that I have some value. I don’t know if I fit into being a transsexual or a crossdresser. The feeling of wanting to be a total woman is often very strong, but at other times I just enjoy and feel very comfortable wearing womens clothes.
Thank you again for your hypnosis tapes, what you are doing is a great help to me. It’s nice to know that other people are accepting, understanding and supportive of these types of issues. It’s nice to hear from yourself and others.
Have a great day.
Karen
hi
lucy
first time i wear female dress at our school gathering day. in a play i acted as Anarkali. from that time i feel like a girl inside me.
Hi, i’ll never forget my first experience as it felt so right. I was 5 years old and my best friend had a sister who was 8/9 and I rember being so jealous when she started to develop breasts. So one day I pinched one of her training bras and tried it on, it felt so good. And ever since that day I knew I was a girl. My whole life i’ve been wearing female underware, I am now 32 years old and really struggling with who I am as I come from a very male dominated family and have never been able to tell anyone exactly how I feel. I can no longer keep it in as I need to start living my true life. If you can help any info would be very appreciated!
WOW what a question, at 56 where do I start. I still remember my first nighty I slept in, it was my sisters. Well she was away and slipped into her room and I knew I was in heaven and at age 11 it felt so good. As I had no idea of what an erection was I wasn’t sure of what to do, but I took the nighty and hid it in my room, this feels like yesterday. Since then I have always love the feel of satin & silk where I still wear stockings, panties & camy’s to work under my work clothes. My wife is none the wiser. I would love to expose myself to her but just can’t bring myself to do it, any help on this matter would be good as I would love to spend the rest of my days as a woman, have the breast implants, etc. I love crossdressing, not for sex but just to have that feel of looking and being sexy. I do have a really nice collection of outfits and want to enjoy life, so I really am on the look out for a lovely lady who will accept and love me as one.
Lots of love to those who are out in the open, hopefully I too can join you,
Love, Peta
knew that i was a girl in my teens-looking at slpips and panties instead of male clothing