I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
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i started feeling like a girl when i started putting on my mothers nylons when i was about three or four years old .when i got older i started trying on her shoes and her girdle.when i started school i always wanted to be a girl but this was the 1950s so i put these feelings on hold.in 1964 i enlisted in the navy and went to vietnam and after i got married and then i started wearing my wifes stockings and her girdle.after a couple of years living out of the country we came back and i finally told her that i was a crossdresser and she was ok with it and then i started dressing fully and joining cd groups here in the city ,but only going out one night a week dressed up.i now belong to a meetup group here in manhattan.and i love being a girl.phylisanne.
I don’t know the exact time but I remember being aroused at a young age by the feel of my mom’s silky garmets. An old girl friend used to let me wear lingerie when we were having fun because she liked how it really aroused me. A few years ago, more like fifteen, I started keeping silk next to my body at the same time I became obsessed with silky skin and the way it felt on me. I am now a full blown femme lesbian trapped in a man’s body. I have alot of work to do on body language as the last couple times I thought I was enfemme I was addressed as “sir”, ouch. I am slim, stylishly long haired, completely shaved, and was wearing cinching and padding in all the right places. My nails, all twenty, are frenched by a pro, well made up, and I was wearing tall platforms. One woman said “sir” well before she could have seen me as we met at a super market interchange.I am still wondering what I did wrong? Help??
Before you get all upset about being called Sir when out in fem, Just remember that there are people like me that can walk up to a GG and say ‘Sir’, just like my children run up to me and say ‘Mom’ when they mean ‘Dad’.
Some people are dumb and mean, and others have a clumsy tong like me.
We all slip that one up every now and then, and I always get a weird look when I mess that one up.
I am sure you are beautiful. I am 40 plus and have gone shopping with out my nails done. Just a bra and stuffing and a modest skirt and long sleeve blouse and shoes. Never have any issues. Now if I try and look like a size 4 college girl, well, that would just be a freak show.
Be blessed and don’t let it get you.
I knew when I was 5. When my older brothers and sisters were at school, I’d get my sisters clothes and dress in them. Sometimes my mothers. I asked my mother why I had to dress in different clothes than my sister, she replied of course, “You’re a little boy”,
I cried so much that she let me dress in whatever clothes I wanted to as long as my father was at work and the other kids were at school. I progressed to wearing everything they did. lingerie, hose and heels, dresses and sometimes sisters shorts and blouses all of them being too small for her to wear anymore. That was a lot of years ago, nothing has changed. Every moment of my life is knowing
I was supposed to be a girl and knowing what I missed, but I am trying to make up for that a little now by just being the real me as much as I can.
I suppose I was around 8 or 9 yrs old when I discovered myself. I had an older sister that I would borrow clothes from, without her knowing of course. I enjoyed the feel and how I looked in them. It was something that I did in my own privacy for a time. One day my mom started to find my hidden collection. That did not go over all that well. I was sent to psycologists to try and fix what isnt broken. That bothered me for quite some time. As I got older, I started to get gutsy so to speak and buy my own fem clothes. Now I get them without having to hide them. I enjoy being able to be the me I want to be without reservation. I am somewhat of a country kind of person, so a cowgirl motiff fits me perfect. That is what a few of my friends that know my fem side tell me. I was invited to go to the pride celebration/parade in san diego this year. I had an absolute ball!! I went out for the first time in one of my cowgirl outfits, and I sure got a lot of compliments….not to mention being hit on…lol. It was an amazing feeling to go out in public enfemme and being noticed in the best of ways. At the age of 37, coming out seems hard. But I think that if nobody can handle/accept me for me, both sides of me, thats that persons problem. I have some great friends to thank for the help and support for the courage to come out and be open with who I am…not to mention the help those of us here get from Lucille. Lucille, you and the help you give us ROCKS!!
I guess I was about 8 or 9 when I started to feel diferant I wanted to ware my mothers nylon panties and slips but I was cought out one day in her panties and half slip by mother and was told it was unhealthy for boys to ware womens underware so I got sneaky and went under ground seaking away when ever I could to put on her panties the feel of the nylon against my skin was the most beautiful feeling I had ever felt it made me feel like a girl and so I started to ware her panties instead of jocks Ihave always had that feeling that I was half girl half boy I have been through two marrages and both my wives didnt like me being girly but I now have a partener who is GG and likes me This way I now ware lacy panties and a bra 24/7 she and I both ware the same size underware so we share the only thing of hers I cant ware is her bra as she is a 14DD and I am a small 12B we both sleep in nylon nighties She says she like me being femine as it make me a better lover more soft and gentel and now she is teaching me to make love as a lesbian and I now have what she calls a girly orgasam as well as my boy orgasam I feel good now and I like the femine side of me so inside I am Bethany and outside I am Barry
My journey started around the age of seven with dreams of being with men and finding pleasure in being touched by men. I had no idea what it was only that I was different and a deep fear of revealing my thoughts to ANYONE. I was ten when I finally acted upon these feelings and began to dress and act out in private. My father passed away when I was 11 and by my twelve birthday I was living with a friend of the family who took me into his bed where I found that my inner feelings were now reality as I was allowed to dress and play as I wished. Being so young I came to realize even then that I wasn’t able to handle the rejection by society at large. I climbed back into the closet and went home to my mother and never spoke or thought of doing such things again until many years later. I was perhaps 22 or 23 when the feelings and thoughts came crashing back into my life. I could no longer deny them their existence. But I was so afraid that I held them inside and only looked at them when I knew I was absolutely safe. If I had found the courage to let my feelings grow and nourished them I wonder where I would be today. You see, today I am a 60 year old TS who is on hormones and learning about makeup and wigs and most importantly learning about my feelings AND LOVING EVERY SECOND OF MY LIFE. Today I know who I am and I know where I’m going. I’m going to be the best gurl I can be, thanks to all the gurls who have gone before me God bless them all
You go girl… I am in the same bote
Cheers
Mayte
You go girl!!
I remember first having feelings that I should have been a girl at the age of seven or eight, but it wasn’t until I was 13 or so that I started acting on it. I used to babysit for a family with a two-year old, and once he was asleep I would go look at the mother’s clothes, especially her bras, panties, slips, but also blouses, dresses, skirts, etc. Eventually I got up the nerve to try on a bra, panties and a slip and I felt transformed into a woman. It was the most exciting feeling I had ever experienced. Naturally I started to get aroused and this led to masturbating, while fantasizing that I was a girl/woman. To this day, many years later, I still love dressing in women’s clothes and masturbating, pretending I am a woman.
I grew up in the 1940’s in an extended family in which all of the children in my age range were girls. I remember as a small child admiring their pretty clothes and especially their cute “Mary Jane” style shoes. That was the origin of my fem inclinations, but another was that I was raised by my mother, grandmother & grandfather, but my grandfather passed away when I was nine, so I had no male influence in my life going into my teenage years. In fact, in my pre-teen years my mother actually encouraged my fem tendencies by dressing me as a girl occasionally for Halloween, etc. When the concept of sex dawned on me at age 12 or so, I found that I was sexually attracted to girls, but, at the same time, I also envied them their femininity, their clothes and especially the shoes they wore (I’m sure it’s apparent to all by now that I have a fetish for women’s shoes). This condition has remained constant throughout my life, now into my current early seventies. I went on to join the Marine Corps when I was 17, graduate from college, get married & have four kids. My wife was aware of my fem tendencies & didn’t like them, but she tolerated them to a certain extent for my sake. After she passed away from cancer 17 years ago, I got more involved with my fem side: I underwent estrogen therapy & developed small (B Cup) breasts that I can conceal beneath button-front male shirts. Currently, I always wear fem underwear (bra & panties) and knee-high nylon stockings under my male clothing (a large part of which is man-styled women’s clothing & shoes). I also have a collection of about 15 pairs of heels in size 12D, which I wear when the inclination comes upon me, usually at night. In spite of all this fem behavior, I have never presented myself socially as a woman or desired sexual relations with a male; rather, I am what I’ve heard clinically termed as “auto-erotic”, which means that I find sexual fulfillment within myself simply by indulging my fem behaviors & assuming a female persona in my own mind. I do have a normal male attraction to women, but at my age (71) it is very muted & eclipsed by the satisfaction I get from my auto-erotic nature. A few years ago, I supplemented my breast development with Lucille’s “Flat 2 Fem” program, and I’m currently intrigued with her Feminine Persona Hypnotherapy program which I may try next. In conclusion, I’ve been a “Trans Girl” for going on 60 years now & I don’t see any end to it in my future.
OMG,
Ditto
i just turned 70..
i was in the care of my fathers parents from birth until about 12 years. during those first 12 years i spent most of my time with 2 female cousins, we played house i wanted to be mommy. I can remember wanting to wear dresses, i enen asked for them but the answer was always no!
aroun the age of 12 i finaly went to stal with my mother.
i remember she had a girlly salor short set!!! i loved to wear it and every thing else i found.
after high school i went into the air force for 4 years and gott married. my wife had a pretty black dress i had to get into. So I have been at it for a while.
I have of late been going out shopping, went to dinner last week as briana.. today i got my brows shapped. most members of my family still do not know about these activities.