I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
When I was 8 and my sitter told me she wanted to dress me in my sisters clothing and I willingly let her
I was 5. My sister had beautiful dresses I loved trying them on . When I seen her in dance class I wanted to be in pink leotards and tutus as well. I later took figure skating but never had the chance to do it in a girl’s outfit 🙁 but better times ahead.
I was about 3 or 4 and I knew something was wrong as I just didn’t feel right about myself. I’d look in the mirror and know I wasn’t a boy and I played only with dolls. Guess my Mom saw it too cause when I played dress-up in her clothes she began helping me pick things to match. She bought my clothes in the girls section of the stores and I remember saddle shoes and Mary Janes were regular wear for me till I got heels. Memories!
Having three older brothers who liked to play sports and build forts. I was awkward, tended to read more, and built roads and cities to play. When older brothers went to play my mother had me stay home to help take care of my younger sister and brother. And it was me that always went with my mother shopping. I remember and thinking how it feel to wear the woman’s clothes in the Sears and Wards catalog. All this starting around age 8. When I reached puberty I tried to fit in but was very bad at it. I felt out of place.
My friend and I were playing pretend princesses and our moms told us that I wasn’t allowed to be a princess 🙁 I think I was six.
I knew when I was very young, when I saw my beautiful mom wearing her very feminine silky nylon lingerie: Vanity Fair and Van Raalte silky nylon and lace trim half slip, pretty bra, silky sheer reinforced toe and heel nylons, I had such a strong desire to wear her lingerie when she was out. When I had my opportunity when she went out one day, I finally tried on her silky lingerie, I absolutely loved it, and was secretly hooked for life, so to speak! I loved the pretty shiny look and feel of the silky lingerie fabric and the gorgeous lace trim on me. My cding went away during high school and college when I played sports. After that, all of a sudden one day, my cding intensly came back to me for some odd reason, and I dressed up with more intensely in more silky lingerie, satin female clothing, satin wedding gowns, makeup, nailpolish, high heels, wigs, jewelry, etc. Was it all repressed in me during my school years for some odd reason? I think the Internet helped promote my cding moreso. I like to look at all kinds of cd and lingerie websites. I am in the closet and part time cd, and keep it secret and discreet, due to my job, and local suburban conservative attitude towards it. Many uptight people where I live. No one knows about me cding in my personal life, but a few online cd friends, websites, some online retailers that I order lingerie from, and Lucille and her assistant is aware of it with me. I enjoy my compulsive cding like today, and my impulsive cd lingerie shopping. I love to see beautiful women, cd’s, and t girls on the Internet. Sometimes I wish I were them, and to be with them as a cd friend. I also sometimes fantasize about being dressed up pretty and feminine and be on a date with a man for the first time to see how I’d like it. I don’t think my cding will ever leave me, as I enjoy it so much, esp silk, nylon and shiny satin female clothing. I stayed single because of my private cding, and afraid to tell any women about my secret cd fetish, for fear of rejection and losing them as girlfriends. Also, living alone, I can cd in my off hours in private at home by myself anytime. Only my cat knows about it. Lol. I wish I could find a beautiful and understanding woman to share my cding with in a long term relationship though, because I long for that. Any women out there interested to get to get acquainted and get to know this cd here? Cd’s make good loyal partners and clothes shopping retail therapy for us can be a fun hobby together. Thank you. 😉
Love your story; much like mine. Check out crossdressers.com for advice and support especially with wives/girl friends. Lynn
What a wonderfully expressed experience. It was a pleasure reading.
I really didn’t understand, I was between 2, and 3. I know, hard to believe. My maternal grandmother already knew. Shew had a bunch of dresses that she gave me when I was very young. She told my mother to let it go, that I was a very special child. My dad however was not as understanding. I guess in the native American society, it is not a terrible thing. Anyway in the old days.
The first time I actually remember trying on female clothes was when I was six, I tried a pair of pantyhose on, obviously as you’ll all know one thing always leads to another. At sixteen I was regularly, albeit in secret, wearing female clothes, shoes, accessories, wig and make up. Again as someone has mentioned before if I had been born in this era of acceptance I maybe would have transitioned. However now, I do go out in public, meet up with family members and my kids, I’m happy with were I am in life at the moment so we’ll see where this goes. Xx