I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
Well being young I did dress up as a girl for fun with my cousin, and that got me thinking when I was around 10. But then a year ago I was on the train coming home, and saw a lady on the train bend over and saw she was wearing stockings and suspenders, I was fascinated and then went home and searched them and it became a huge fetishism and it’s grown and grown now I wear tights and females underwear I have a huge collection now of alsorts of things and I just love being a women as it’s so much more appealing and interesting then being a man!
I can honestly say that the answer to the question is: Just recently. What I mean by that is the feelings did actually begin at about the age of 4 or 5. I was walking to the car with my mother when felt that my feelings were to feminine so I decided to shut them off. For the most part it worked. From then I was so concerned about being male, I mean I was taught that socially and morally I couldn’t be anything except male, just because I was born with testies and a chest that would never develop breast. I wanted breast, a vagina, to look pretty, to wear pretty clothes. I had an attraction to males, but I wasn’t going to let myself be gay, I have nothing against gay people I just didn’t want to be and knew that I wasn’t, so this feeling was the deepest buried and even now I can barely recall these feelings, but I know that I’ve had them. I’m 43 now and about a week ago all these feelings started breaking though the dam. I experience a lot of mixed emotions these days. It’s hard and confusing, but the best of these are happiness that I can finally come out and when I am feeling girly the most I feel a strong amount of love filling my body from head to toe.
Hi Lucille,
Thank you for the thought provoking questions, it brought me back and forced me to think about the entire journey and the changes and perceptions of myself as well as the difficulty of doing everything behind closed doors in solitude.
I first knew at 4 years old, I remember going into my mother’s closet and the first thing that hit me was the scent. Then all the beautiful dresses and gowns Then I happened to stumble on the place where she had her garter belts and nylons. Next thing I know I’m putting on the nylons and garter belt somehow I knew exactly how to put them on properly. Then I found a silk slip and put that on, it made me feel like this is more comfortable and I can’t wait to grow up and be a beautiful woman.
It went on for some time I would go in her closet while she was busy talking on the phone change out of my boy clothes and into her nylons and slip. Of course, it came to an abrupt end when one day my mother didn’t stay on the phone and came looking for me.
Needless to say, that was the last time I did that and kept the memory buried deep in my mind. Unfortunately, the gentle lecture stayed with me too, and whenever I had an urge to continue to explore that side of me her words of “you are a little boy and little boys don’t dress like that. Little boys dress like boys, then you’ll grow up to be a man meet a girl get married and have kids.” Those words were burned into my mind so strongly, that 50 years later I am finally taking the first step on a journey to make myself feel and look as I should instead of living my life to please others and live up to or embrace their idea of what I need.
Have a wonderful day!
Nataliya
I see my feminine side later in my life. One day my girl friend told me I am looks like a girl. Then only I see my breast growth. Now totally I am a perfect woman. Thank you Lucille for your support to become me a perfect and beautiful woman.
I see my feminine side later in my life.
As a boy growing up in the early seventies, I was about 6 or 7 years old and my older sisters had satin nighties and my mother used to have see through nighties. One night I put on the see through nightie and that was it. I was hooked, my mother also had a satin jumpsuit that I adored.and again I put this on and loved it. Went to bed in it one night, and my mum came in to my room pulled back the covers and saw me wearing it, she pulled covers back over me and in the morning I got the biggest telling off of my life. My step dad threatened to take me to school dressed in it, I was terrified and cried my eyes out. I never went to school like it but now aged 50 still dress as Sophia only more so now xx
I was around ten years old. Had been talking at school with a friend and he suggested doing a play in which I could be an old lady. From the bus on way home I saw a young woman and suddenly realised that I wanted to dress like her.
At around the same time there was an Alice in Wonderland school play. It was an all boys school and who would play Alice? I can tell you that it wasn’t me. One boy had an unfair advantage because his mother had a long wig that she would lend.
I have realized it later in life but when my ex girlfriend opened my eyes to my missing link. but when i was just around 7,8 yrs old i was being corrected by my grande parents on the way i sit, eat, talk. My girlfriend was Bi told me the way i was making love to her it felt like she was making love to another woman. She asked me one question ” what is the one fantasy that you know would never come true that you would like to come true, i told her that i wanted to be a woman, i have no idea to what made me say this. Since then i have been expanding my horizon first taking herbs, dressing as a woman comming out of the closet. Im dressed as a woman at work, but my family hasnt , but im determind.