I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I was 10 years old and playing with an elder female cousin one very rainy Sunday. She suggested i dress in her clothes and reluctantly i did. However, it was as if a light had just gone on in my head and i knew that i was a girl at heart. i loved wearing my cousins clothes and could not wait for the chance to get home and try on my sister’s and mother’s clothes. Though i did not understand the why at the time and had to cross-dress in secret, over the years i have come to understand my gender dysphoria and to live my life around it.
At the age of 10 is when I feminizing myself wearing women clothing
At 10 yes old I was folding the whites for mom when I picked up a pair of my 8yr old sister’s whit panties with lace when something in my head screamed “WOW” and I ran upstairs to try on these little beautie’s! The fit soon nice I was hooked! The lady next door had a daughter 1yr younger than me and Gave her hand-me-downs to my mom for my little sister. First it was flat chested bras. Then in a few years it was bras with cups that I could put tissue in! I’d put on These neighbors would often go back to visit out-of-state relatives and left their housekey with me to water plants and feed fish. I’d spend two hrs in their house trying on their daughter’s clothes. One day I ventured into the parents bedroom where I found 3 wigs and a dresser drawer full of makeup! I began applying makeup, wig, and full on girlie lingerie and oh my goodness I was in heaven!! Because a lot of the neighbor’s trips were in summer, and because the neighborhood kids would be gone at the local parks all day, I’d tell my mom I was going to water the neighbor’s plants and was going to the park afterward. I’d then spend time in their house getting all girlied up and then go to the park as a girl! I’d deliberately get close to my friends but never THAT close to avoid the slim chance I’d be recognized. One of the neighbor girls DID recognize me and approached me quickly. She wasn’t real sure if it was me but stupid me was so scared I just blurted out in my own voice and then she knew for sure. She was always a cool person and she told me what an adorable girl I made and asked if I ever wanted to go to the mall with her. Long long long story short, my mom found out I liked to dress in girls clithes(because she caught me wearing panties and bra 3 times in 4 days) so my mom began to help me apply makeup, bought me girl lingerie, told one of my aunts, and my aunt loved it and started buying me girl clothes! When me and the neighbor girl from the park decided to go to the mall she invited me over (they lived across the street), and picked out an outfit from HER closet, helped me get dressed, did my makeup, and just as we were about to leave my mom calls out for me from the front door to come home! Great! Now what! I figured mom had no problem with me dressing as a girl so I figured she’d have no problem if I went to the mall with Janet! I ran across the street to see what mom wanted and she looked startled at me as a girl. Told her Janet and I wanted to go to the mall and mom gave me $20 to buy something cute! I felt soooo girlie at that moment and it’s the moment I feel my heart, mind, and soul became a comfortable female. Janet and I got on a city bus to the mall and we were girlfriends for the rest of our lives till our friendship just faded away due to distance. This was back in the 70’s. Once I got my drivers license and a job, and then had money to buy my own lingerie and makeup and clothes, the rest is her-sto-ry!
You are beautiful
i first got the inclination to dress in my sisters clothes when i was 8 or 9 i used to borrow them from the laundry basket to wear in my bedroom, i have tried to give it up many times only to start again after a few weeks i have now accepted that i am never going to stop
My story is alot like yours billie! I know the feeling exactly!
I can’t really recall when it was. but as a child, I used to tuck the sheets under my legs and imagine it was a dress. at some point I came across a Frederick’s catalog and my imagination would go wild 🙂
a time went on, I knew inside me was a girl. But my conservative upbringing kept that hidden inside. Now, it is bubbling to the surface, and I am learning all those wonderful things that I wish I had done 25 years ago 🙂
I plan to have some pics of my makeup attempts up soon.
I grew up with an older sister and found her clothes and toys much more interesting and exciting than mine. As I grew older when no one was around I took every discrete opportunity to dress in her underwear, dresses, blouses, skirts and shoes. In the end I am sure she realised I was more fem than male deep inside and started to encourage me by leaving things she knew I liked where I could easily find and use them. As I grew older through teens into adult hood I knew I was really a girl in a male body and tried to escape by being macho now in later life the feelings are stronger than ever.
When I was a kid I had recurring dreams where I ended up in women’s clothes or transformed into a woman. At 13 when mom was out on a Saturday night a sundress was hanging on her closet door. I had to try it on. The feeling was overwhelming.
From there I quickly got into her lingerie and heels, makeup, and wigs, everything.
By the time I was 14 I was dressing fully…..The first night I saw myself in complete makeup, wig, hose, heels, I almost fainted…I knew from that moment on there was a lot of girl in me.
As I got older and the desires increased to really portray myself as a woman as much as I could. In my heart I know I am a woman.
Georgeous
Congratulations on following your dream. You look beautiful. I have known all my life that l am a girl and not listening to my inner voice has caused much anxiety. I now have beatiful clothes and lingerie, wigs and accessorys. I am buying a place were l can live as a woman and may even venture out dressed when I learn to do makeup properly.This has been a long journey 35 years. My latest purchase is a pure silk nitie and dressing gown. I am taking Remifen a natural form of eastrogen my mood is much happier my breasts are sensitive my skin softer and I just enjoy being me for the first time in my life. Thankyou for the opportunity to express my feelings
You are Very Pretty Barbara Lynn!! : ) I had the similar feeling when I first saw my image in the mirror fully transformed!
I have had the TG feelings about being a girl since early childhood.
I have been following the transgender world through magazines and books for over 20 years and kept a secret stash locked up in a file cabinet for times when I was alone. My experimenting has pretty much been in my head as I have never fully dressed for any length of time and always kept TG issues to myself.
About a year ago, after a time when the GD urges were extreme, I was in my doctors office for an annual physical. I mentioned to him that I was having TG feelings and he offered to refer me to a psychologist. I took him up on this and had about 6 sessions, one of them was a joint session with my wife of 48 years. I was encouraged to become more involved with finding myself.
The next time I saw my doctor he offered me a HRT protocol and I have been on a 0.1 mg/day estradoil patch along with spironolactone for35 months. My breasts are really showing now, my skin is softer and I shave my legs and arms and wear clear nail polish. I have had my chest hair removed by electrolysis. I have several sets of panties which I wear occasionally.
I have a very large frame body and am about 100 pounds overweight, am losing weight (60 lbs so far) and have a size 16 shoe size. I therefore don’t see me every passing or outing myself in female clothes. I really don’t know where this is going but I am enjoying all of it.
My psychologist says my attitude and outlook is 180 from what I was like when I first saw her.
Now, I’m trying to reach out to those who might be living a similar life. It has been difficult to find people who have started HRT this late in life. (I am 75 now) It would be nice to share what is happening with others who started late.
Your story is so uplifting. I have been a CD forever. Ruined my first marriage but I was too young, didn’t have any kids so no harm. But I swore I would never marry again without telling my girl about me before we were married. I have a wonderful wife who allows me to play in private as much as I want. She just bought me $100 worth of cosmetics! I rarely post, but wanted to just let out how frustrating it is that there is so little for mature CD’s. I am 54, closeted, but having some fun. I shared a photo from some years ago at a professional CD makeover studio. It was lots of fun. Thanks for your comments. Steph
You are very fortunate