I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I am a 68 year old heterosexual male, have hidden my feminine side all my life and until recently, even hidden her very effectively from myself. I have only just realized after 3 stressful months that she exists, is inside me and has a big influence on my being at ease with myself, so much so that she now has a name and a few clothes.
My Father wanted a girl as he had been born during one world war and had lost his only brother and cousin in another. He did not want to raise a son only to see him taken for cannon fodder.
I was never a macho boy and when I was eight or nine I discovered a rag bag of my Mother’s old underwear in the bottom of the wardrobe which I used to dress up in secret. I dressed in secret as I thought that it was wrong and shameful, not really understanding why but had to continue whenever I could as the feelings were soooo delightful. I was never caught.
Through the years I have occasionally bought female clothes for dressing up but of course, these purchases were followed by purges. The last purchase/purge period was about 30 years ago.
About five or six years ago I started reading TV/TG fiction books on Kindle. The stress of the last few months has pushed me to explore further this subject. In my teens, if there had been Kindle and Internet, who knows what might have been?
I have always been attracted by clothes, shoes and jewellery of both sexes, considering that it is unfair that women have such a vast choice of styles, materials and colours. As it is, I remain in my closet but no longer consider it wrong or shameful as it is after all meee. My sister-in-law (she’s super) does refer to my civil servant hands which are small and slim with well kept nails (for a man’s).
Elizabeth
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I first new I was a girl before I went to school when I always wanted to wear girls clothees to parties. This continued through out school when I always looked with envy at girls uniforms. This has continued throughout life and when I buy clothes, if possible I buy female clothes which I can wear even if I am in male mode.
Hi it’s not only fun and sexy, it’s how we feel. It’s tough to go through though. Even though it feels good, feels right !
I knew by the time I was 3 years old. I’ll be 64 in a couple of months. I’m also a lesbian. It took me a while to figure out that, yes, trans-women can be lesbians, too.
I find myself looking at and reading all those femme magazines, too many to name them off. I’m very compassionate and have been accused of being a drama queen at times. I can be dramatic. I just can’t can’t shake off how I feel. Very interested in the Salem Witch Trials of 1690, historically. Stephen King’s Carrie. And am a writer/author. Most of my characters in my fiction novels are females, young and old !
I’m actually 36, still relatively young. Got a lot to figure out, time to enjoy it… embrace it. And express this enjoyment of a feminine side !
But don’t have plans to do the hormonal transition and definitely no surgery. I couldn’t scare my wife with that, I love her too much. As she does in return. I’m remaining her femme man, she’s learned to be okay with it. After all I’m still a man, her husband !
I even have cross dressed. I just can’t fight this feeling, I feel very girly, more mature female though. I get urges just to express myself fully as a female. I feel prissy. I have shaved my legs and arm pits, even worn make up and lipstick. Also perfume and women’s deodarant and smoked Virginia Slim cigarettes !
I’ve always been very expressive and animated when speaking and writing. I’m very creative. I love art of the old world. I first felt feminine when I became a huge full blown fan of actor Johnny Depp back in 2011. I like wearing scarves. And crossing my legs when I sit. It makes me feel beautiful and definitely sexy. I would love to look like old classic actress Audrey Hepburn. When she played Holly G. in Breakfast at Tiffany’s. I am a lesbian inside a man’s body, very skinny. I feel sexy, tomboyish. Very attracted to women. But do get curious the other way at times, as in gay. I’m married to an actual straight female. It hit my wife with a ton of bricks, emotionally when she found out !
Here’s a thing. I’ve only known that I was a boy when I was 4 right before I starter kindergarten. The reason I said “boy”, prior before turning 5 I’ve always know that I am a girl that I am today.
It all happened when my father told me that I have to cut my hair short (I had hair down to shoulder length with a fringe). It confuses me more when my father bought me pants and shirts for school uniforms instead of skirt like my sister Natasha who’s only a year older than I am.
Since then I was trying really hard to fit in as I do sound and look like a girl as a kid. However it was harder than I thought. So ended up walking around with my head down not talking to people because I’m afraid that people would notice that I am different.
But hey! I’ve blossom now and not afraid to show people who I really am!
Hi, that must of been tough. Sounds like it. Glad to hear that the boy or man inside you has blossomed and came out. I’m still blossoming as a female, though I’m a man. You’ll do alright, we both will ! 🙂