I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
Well i guess around 12 it started.I grabbed a pair of moms pantyhose and put them on,the first time i put them on i was hooked.
Then when I turned 16 again the urge to wear pantyhose took ahold again,this time I was buying my own,not sure which was more of a turn on wearing pantyhose or buying them.
I also bought panties,bras and later garter belts and nylons.Then 6 years ago I was hit hard for wearing nylons and panties and pantyhose.I know wear them everyday,and 8 to 12 hours at a time,sometimes I sleep in them.
I know finding myself wanting more,to dress in skirts and blouses or dresses,i am now wanting to wear out openly,only thing stopping me is my lack of makeup,I don’t want to apply make up and look like a first time cross dresser
I was around 7 years old when I started putting on my aunts panties and slips. She wore things from fredricks and they were very sensual and made me feel very sexual. My first orgasm was while I was wearing her panties and since then I have always had a desire to be a sissy
I took had an encounter with fredricks, at that time it was the only source.
I always knew I was female ever since I could remember. I have always dreamed as a girl and known that I couldn’t ever be anything but a woman.
Need a emoji for my envy. Cute.
I forgot to say that you caught my eye with your enhancement, I am proud of my own. Welcome to our world
Your not alone,trust me. You are a woman
Stephanie, I wouldn’t have thought you weren’t a woman.
Stephanie,you´re a beautiful and great woman, be happy as you are.
Since in my twenties in private I started to get all women’s cloths and wear them in private and wear in town while I was by my self and know I’m doing more girly things with my cousin she’s a woman she has help me understand certain things about being a woman is all about
I have always felt like I should have been a girl, even telling my mother my breasts would become as big as hers when I would get older, until, when I was 4, people started telling me I did “girly” things and wasn’t supposed to do that because I was a boy. So I started acting as boyish as I could.
Later, when I was around 10 years old and home alone, I tried on some of my mother’s clothes, after which I remembered everything from earlier and started my research on how to be like a girl.
From that point, I started acting very feminine in private, but still had to act masculine in public to conceal that.
For example, I grew my hair out, but I had to tell everyone it was because I was into rock music, and grew a beard when I was 16 to make it sound more convincing.
So for me, it was clear before I even started, while for others, I looked like any other kid, except for my long hair and my beard.
Since my twenties I was always drawn to feminine fashions and unisex styles and to having a feminine hairstyle. But the realisation of a much stronger feminine side has indeed blossomed much later in life. Expressing this feminine side, albeit discreetly, is usually accompanied with a sense of calm and well being and the feeling that I am in touch with the “whole me”. Not to express it at all leaves me feeling rather empty inside.
I was 6 when I played dress ups with my older sister. My mum told me when I was around 3 years, that I had curly blond hair, and people commented what a lovely girl I was. This changed when my grandmother came to live with us for a few years, and cut off my golden locks when my mother was at work.
I tried to block out and shut out my deep feelings and feminine desires thinking that this wasnt normal, and focused my life on a young woman, and my professional career. After several years or living together, I married , and for the first 10 years of marriage of living in my alter self, my desires for dressing up returned slowly. I have now separated from my partner, who found it difficult and lost respect for me, even though I continued to care for her, and have 2 beautiful children (now in their 20’s) and who have lovely accepted me as the start of my transition which has been over the past 12 months.
Im not sure what shape the future holds, knowing that there are many hurdles to overcome, however, I feel more inner peace now, and the development of my persona who loves everything about feminity, and also loves woman and to be loved by woman and not men. I feel fortunate that we live in a society which is now more open, and the media is helping wonderful people like Bruce Jenner share and educate the public of the struggles, even though we each have some unique individual set of circumstances, we all face a common discrimination that has plagued society since the dawn of man, and the fear of differences in race, religion, and gender. Its comforting to know now after all these years of suppressing my inner reality, that I am not a freak of nature, and neither a woman, nor man, but a transgender.
We do all have our own story but a lot of what you have said is how I feel. It is always nice to know we are not alone. I do not have anyone who feels the way I do that I know personally but do have a wife who is trying to accept the situation. Thank you for your story.
I found out when i was about 9 yrs of age .
My auntie dressed me as a girl from the age of 2years when she showed me photos of a little girl feeding the ducks at the local park.
i asked if i could be that girl again , lifes never been the same since ,
i stopped for a while when i got married, but Sara came back half way through the marriage, now divorced sara is a very big part of my life , the only girl that will stay for the rest of my life along with with partner
who loves sara just as much as i do .
She’s so happy, now