I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I was about 8 when I started coming to a realization that I enjoyed the more feminine side of me. I really cannot recall what brought it up, maybe that my sisters liked testing makeup or putting fingernail polish on me around that time. I was the one who moved further into dressing and wearing a bra. I kept it a secret but really enjoyed it. I did not care what my boy clothes I wore at that time but I was careful as to how I looked when wearing women’s clothing. From there it blossomed, but privately.
I knew for sure at 13 years old that I had some sort of feminine side. I didn’t accept that she was me until I was 31. The first time that I wore both a bra and panties together was the first time that I really felt sexy inside and knew that I’m a girl in the wrong body. Changes are going to be made.
I believe I was three or four years old when I got the news that I wasn’t a girl. In a nut shell I was sitting on my Mother’s lap and I remember asking her when I would grow up and look like her? I think she found it amusing and she was very sweet in her reply. She said, “Oh honey Mommies a girl and you’re a boy. You won’t grow up to look like me you’ll look like Daddy”. This was my first life crisis and my little being went WTF! I remember having a great sense of loss.
All these years later there’s a woman looking through these eyes.
I know what you mean. For many years, I’ve had a vague feeling of being cheated, and sometimes, when I see a doll in her package (like in a hatchback Xmas display at VW dealer a few days ago), I’m gripped by the worst combination of nostalgia, longing, & loss, like someone died or something. Even now, w/Emily out of her cage.A woman looking through these eyes…yeah…beautiful.
Lucille, you are a wonderful human for putting web space together. I found you today while looking for body shaping tips.
Any who 🙂
When I was six I would play dress up with the neighbor girls and always want to where this blue dress and stockings.
A few years later wearing my moms clothes after school became a daily event.
At age 22 I had a epiphany in my dorm while I was shaving my legs and realized I had been unique since I was a kid.
i dident start till late teens now married to a wonder full woman who accepts and helps to a point
givin the opertunity i woul live most of my life as cathy
just being femenine is so natural to me now
have extencive warbrobe love my girly clothes love cathy xxx
Dearest Lucille,
I was very young when my mother began to “feminize” me. Like Jennifer it began with her giving me stockings to play with. She made me her little girl. It was fun for her and she encouraged it until her sister, (my Aunt) dropped in one day and saw her nephew (me) wearing my older sister’s dress and a saggy pair of stockings. Of course this “dressing” had to stop…boys don’t wear girl clothes” As all of your girls know, it does not stop. I like Cristine had developed a feminine side that was a very happy and playful part of who I was and am. I fought the urge to dress on and off all my life. As many of you,I would embrace being feminine and loved to dress, only to be followed by feelings of guilt and shame. I too sought guidance with a Therapist. With her help, I have reached a good balance in my life and on special occasions, I, Vera go shopping as a female and enjoy the feminine side of who I am. All the Best, Vera J.
I was about the four or five when I realized that I was a girl inside a mans bodyI will go in the hall and my grandma had given me some of her old stockings play with and I would put them on and I would feel so so good it made me feel like a girl and then from then on I would buy pantyhose at the corner store or stockings and I would go into my basement and I will put those on and when I turn 16 I would go to a store and my town and buy a skirt and high heels and and pantyhose and it made me feel so woman like and I wish that I could be a girlso ever since then address when I can it makes me feel so so sexy
10 years old when I started wearing dresses.