I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
At 4 years old in 1942. It could have been earlier that I exhibited feminine things, but my first realization was during a practice black out which was mandatory then. My father was and air raid warden for our neighborhood. We were required to have shades on the windows that didn’t let any light through and we used candles. We also had to be quiet. My mother, 2 sisters and I were sitting at the table when mom decided to paint her and my sisters fingernails to pass the time. And she refused to do mine and I cried and acted up so badly that to keep me quiet, she did do mine. How proud was I. That is until dad got back home and read the riot act to me (sort of the riot act). This caused me to be caucious in acting like a female because way back then, there wasn’t the modern advances like tv and computers. We never saw pictures or read articles about beinig transgendered until Christine Gorgenson splashed onto the scene in 1952. As most of us felt, we were the only ones in the world with this condition. This also occurs today of course but you realize there is help available early in life. I only found out there were others like myself when I was 14 and puberty had already set in. I always felt like a girl.
I knew when I was about 5 years old, but I didn’t understand it until I was about 10. That was way back in 1963. I saw an article in Life Magazine about transexuals and immediately recognized that was me. From 5 to about 8 I thought that I would grow up to be a woman, but as I got older I realized, and especially from the LM article, that I was trapped. Being the era that it was I was raised to believe this condition was warped and depraved. I was ashamed and hated myself. Many years later, and two suicide attempts too in my 20’s, I have reconciled myself to myself and accept who I am. I’m living full time and I’m an over the road truck driver, a truly macho field, but I’m finding truck drivers are a very unique breed and very accepting. Be Proud To Be The Woman You Are!
As far back as I can remember I was more comfortable in female clothes than male. I would use my mothers or the neighbours clothes when I had the opportunity. I even had a secret hide out set up on an overgrown & fenced of piece land where I made my own Femme Paradise, this lasted for about 6 years until they built on it.
All of my feelings for the femminine was way before I started school. Even to this day I still feel more comfortable & normal as my femme self
Cannot remember when the first times was, but just felt something different,when close to sisters clothes and then started to try them on and felt normal. When I was about fourteen was in a school play as a girl and then undertood what was missing in my life. Dressed more and more through the teens and then got married and still dressed got found out and then was told to keep it out of her sight. Ended up in divorce as I could not keep it a secret. Some 14 years ago found a new partner who aceepted me for what I was and we got married and now are like two women living together and I feel that at long last I am content with myself and she helps in all the correct ways.I onky have female underwear which she likes me to wear all trhe time and I am happy todo so and sometimes if we are away from home we dress kike two woemn out for shopping and or a night out. It took many many years but at last their,
Years ago when i was a boy i always like to wear my sisters clothes . Later i always hide my things somewhere, but one day my wife found some of my lingerie. She was very upset because she thought i had another woman. When i told she it was all mine she was angry very much and wanted to leave me. I promised her to change but she knew i could not. I love her to much and after some days she told me she will try to understand. We went out for shopping which i enjoyed very much.She helped me find my lovely lingerie ,Shoes and Woman Jeans . When we went to the counter she told me to pay. She is afraid that i want to sleep with men but i never never would like to do this.i only want to stay with she ( lesbian my Dream). She told me one day when she go to town to prepare myself and enjoy and when she came home first time she saw me fully dressed with Make Up long Hair and Heels.She could not really handle it and told me she need time. Yesterday she went shopping and brought some very lovely lingerie and silky Night Dress for me .I hope i never loose she because i love her too much
it was at the age of 9 or 10. But at earlier years i remember that i love to play with dolls. I also put on some clothes from my sister. It was before internet and i did not know what to do. So i hide it. I wass scared that i where abnormal. But i could not stop with dressing up. Now i know i had to speak up about my feelings. My live would be different and maybe i had more hapiness en my life. Josje
I started when I was 6 or 7 wearing my sisters panties and bras. I love wearing them today. I can not find a bra that I like so I got some and cut the cups out so I have an open cup bra that fits perfect and I can wear anywhere.
The first thought came when I was about ten. Later I started wearing my mother’s underwear to masturbate, but is was a pure sexual thing. Then, at the age of twenty, it seemed to disappear. However, twenty years later it came back. And soon the feelings became very strong, and they are growing ever since. I now have a complete second wardrobe, only wear female underwear, dress up as a girl as much as I can, and would love to out as a woman.
I have a very understanding girlfriend, who has accepted me completely, as long as it stays private, something between us. She does not feel very comfortable when you can see my bra through my t-shirt when we are outside.