I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I knew from my earliest memories that I “was wrong”. However, it wasn’t until I turned 13 and joined a Scottish Pipe and Drum Band that I realised what is wrong is that I am a girl with the wrong body. The first time I wore a kilt was a light-bulb moment in that it felt natural for me to wear a skirt. For my whole life my friends have all been girls and I enjoyed making perfume and things like that. I became jealous and resentful at times because they could be the girl they are but I couldn’t. I took every opportunity to dress in the clothes that fit the girl I am and not the clothes that fit my physical appearance. I have felt a great deal of despair in my life knowing that I am a girl, knowing this from an early age but having to treat my “girl/womanhood” like a dirty little secret.
I think I was 5 years old and told the babysitter I won’t go to bed until I put on the pretty nightgown with the flowers on it and my sister gets the pajamas with the cars and trucks on them. Of course in the morning when my mother asked me why I had my sister’s nightgown on, I blamed the babysitter. My femininity just continued to blossom.
I knew it from the time I was aware. I lived most of my life in a fantasy world where I was accepted as a girl. I tried to blend in with gays, thinking I was one but, although they all loved me, I was treated as someone to be protected. My parents were the anchor that kept my world together, and when they finally passed I started to go insane. I almost always dressed on the feminine side. Now I am beginning to transition, and am under the care of an excellent psychologist and Dr. I am finally finding out what it means to be happy. At 60, I am finally starting my real life.
Looking back, I guess I was 7 or so when I experimented with my sister’s shoes, underwear and bras. At that time being called a woman to a little boy was about the worst name that could be leveled at you. I suppressed every urge to play with”girl” toys, but still the names came. The thing I could not suppress was my nature. I wasnt aggressive, or gruff like the other guys. I joined the military and got married. I continued to suppress, but would occasionally wear things my wife had in her closet. I was drawn to the Tg community, in secret. A few years ago, it became too much and I had to let my wife know. It went better than expected, but it’s still hard for her on some ways. She has helped with fashion tips and bought clothes for me and actually has sewn a few things. I do not come out in front of her, more my issue than hers, but travel and that it’s where I get to be, and just exist.
Tara
As the question is now out there I realized my fem feelings about 7 or 8 years old. I am over 60 now and like many others closeted most of my life,still closeted if truth be known.Girls clothes fit better, feel better,and look better,I dress when I can,and love it,but back to small town reality,I do the only thing I can, dress up as a man.
And now a completely different thing!
I noticed Davinas picture, and as an old art director I must give all us girls an little advice. Never, never use a camera (incl. mobile ditos) in the wide angle position. On contrary zoom innearly maximum blow up!!!! And now: WHY??? Simply that the wide angle position makes all things near the camera MUCH bigger than in reality. The tele position instead makes the proportions of the subjects in the picture to look normal. For ex. think of your nose. I do not think that you want to blow up the proportions and let your ears diminish. What I was reacting on was that many of our girls sit in a sofa and use the wide angle lens position = the LEGS get absolutely wrong proportions in compare with the body and face. Solution = Back off and use nearly maximum focal lenght. Sorry works not in your mobil camera. Good luck with your coming pictures girls! 🙂
I remember first experiencing gender dysphoria at around age 7 or 8, but I was completely oblivious as to what my feelings meant. Growing up, I had countless vivid fantasies in which I was a girl, but I must’ve somehow set myself aside from my feelings and just attributed it to imagination. I’ve been drawn to feminine things all my life and I felt fantastic when I dressed up as Lady Gaga on halloween a few years ago, but it wasn’t until recently (August 2014) that it became absolutely clear to me that my fantasies were actually a very real part of me and my identity. I was 24 when I realized it. I am 25 now and I’ve gotten to know myself a bit by now, but I still have a long way to go.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve hoped and wished for my life to end, just so I’d be free from the pain I’ve lived with; depression, anxiety, and constant panic attacks.
I began to experiment a few months ago, and on the very first day that I did, I felt genuinely happy for the first time.
you sound like you may also be an empath. this can make you feel all kinds of crazy stuff. one site to check into is eliselebeau.com.
I have been regularly cross-dressing since I was 10, I always have been attracted to female clothes, I was jaelous of women. But I was only seeing cross-dressing as a release, as some fun time. But just 2 years ago I had a girlfriend, very sexy tall swedish girlfriend. After few months she told me she did not know why but she was not seeing me as a boyfriend but just as her best friend she could rely on, tell anthing.
Since then I started to think, I started really accepting my feminity. And now I am sure.