I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I was very young. By the time I was in kindergarten for sure. I remember always noticing the cute dresses, puffy sleeve tops and pleated skirts the girls would wear to school. I also loved the braids and ponytails in their hair. I was particularly interested in barrettes and hair ribbons. When I was about 10 I started to notice the way grown women looked and acted. I enjoyed listening to my mother’s friends talk about shoes and nail polish. It was about then I started to play with makeup and trying on my mom’s clothes. I started going out en femme at 16. I was nervous but it felt so normal. I never looked back after that.
I knew I was different however, I didn’t figure out how until I was around 10 yrs old. And honestly thought I was nuts. After all, I was supposed to be a boy. Its funny how you remember things. I was thinking about the JC Penney’s Christmas wish book. One of four brothers we got to go through it and circle what we would like to have. And I always went for the girly things. One thing I circled every year the Tutu pretty pink ballet outfit. Nothing was ever said to me about it. Oh well water under the dam I guess. LOL
I guess I really didn’t understand things to well. But I knew at a tender that I enjoyed wearing my mothers pantyhose. I was over 20 when I finally realized my desires
I knew when I was about 5. I asked my other why I had to wear my brothers hand me downs instead of my sisters like other girls would. I would always take their old clothes and dress up, or what I thought was dress normally. It was when I came downstairs in a dress, stockings and garter belt, bra and heels that my mother warned me no never do that when my father was around. That too was in the early 60s. I always wanted to look like Donna Reed. I now dress everyday to some extent and usually all in female clothing. Which is right for a woman. 🙂
I remember from an early age probably 7 or less always wearing clothes and shoes i could with out anyone knowing, where i grow up it is still pretty homophobic . Now i still love to wear the clothes the corsets what ever they just feel natural and you can relax and be you
As long as I was a boy I knew I wanted to be a girl. I didn’t dare ‘come out’ about it because ‘those things/thoughts were girls; not boys’. No charm bracelets etc for me…I became an over achiever to keep my mind busy…I thought the feelings would go away if I got married and had kids. I remember the birth of our first child and how I longed to be the one pregnant. After 3 children things didn’t change for me…I felt like my life was a big lie, a terrific act. I tried to tie my identity to my role as a male ‘suit’ …I hated “the good ol’boy club’, but didn’t have a problem getting in…until I got ‘kicked out’…lost my job,black listed etc….I was miserable and my wife knew something big was wrong with my feelings. I was terrified when I came out to her…I thought she would leave me. Instead she showed me unconditional love and support. She said there were little things over the years that I had done, or was doing that made more sense to her. Life is so good now! I need a walk-in closet for my two wardrobes..I still live a primary role as a male, and get mistaken for a female even with basic male clothes occasionally. I gave my penis to my wife…I just take care of it for her.I told her I wouldn’t transition as it would be very selfish of me at this point in my life… I am very cautious who I share with as I fear for my life….love this blog btw…xo
As far back as I can remember and probably before then (my earliest memories are of the desire to be a girl and do girl activities but everyone seemed to see me as a boy… hmm). My issue then was even though I did ‘girly’ things (only small amounts however not to arouse suspicion), the information about being transgender just wasn’t there… sigh. It wasn’t until I was in my early 20’s when I found out what it was that I was going through and it wasn’t until much later that I finally did something about it :). It is good to see that more and more children are able to be themselves at such a young age now.
i was thinking of that since i was 14