I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
i started wearing panties about age 12 . i have 3 sisters so there was plenty to choose from.as time went on i bought my own .i just love the way they look and feel.so many pretty colors and styles!!im in my 50s now and only wear panties!as well as my girly clothes! ilove my jeans and crop tops. ive been attempting to grow breast using a breast enlarging pump with d-dd domes!i am up to a full b cup now and looking to get up to a c cup before i stop. i love wearing form fitting clothes to show of my figure especially in tight jeans and shorts
I told my mom that I wanted to be a girl when I was 4 or 5. That just prompted my parents to push me into male activities. I guess that efforts of behavior modification were typical. Unfortunately, people were not very educated on the gender issues back then (70s). My gender struggles really became complicated when I started puberty at 12. I tried to kill myself at 14. Then a psychiatrist convinced my parents that I just had low self esteem and they put me in martial arts so that I could defend myself against all of the kids that continually tried to beat me up. The struggles with coping went on for years. 4 years ago at 40 I finally broke down and decided to transition. I’m making progress in many ways….
I was very young like 5 or 6 when I put my sisters sleeveless blouse on. That was the very first time I wore an item of women’s clothing and I didn’t want it to be the last. I never forgot that day, of my first time cross dressing, and I can remember wanting to do it more, but at that age nothing my sisters or mom wore really fit well. When I hit my early teens I would find mom’s old pantyhose and secretly wear them to bed and gawk at how they looked on my legs and how they felt on my legs. I shaved my legs for the first time in my early 20’s. I swore off my desire to cross dress from my mid twenties until my early 40’s and it was at this time I told my wife at the time now my ex, that I liked to wear pantyhose and I did wear them with her knowledge. She may not have liked it but it wasn’t a big deal with her. Only after she was gone and our marriage over, did my crossdressing take a natural course leading me to go all out with heels and makeup and the whole nine yards. In the present time, I love to dress and make myself up as a woman. My long term goal is to be passible and go out enfemme regularly. Thank you Lucielle for this site and all your loving support. I can’t repress my femme self anymore and with your help I’m learning how to do it better and with dignity.
Some of my earliest memories are of the knowledge that something wasn’t congruent about my gender. I knew from a very early age, about 4 years old that my body didn’t match with my feminine mind. It has been troubling, depressing and frustrating at times, but, I have at least been blessed with otherwise being relatively healthy. I am in my early 40’s and have yet to transition or develop as my gender therapist likes to call it. I think that I will develop into the woman that I am in mind and spirit, but want to make sure that my aging parents are taken care of and that when it is time to develop, that I will have no regrets as far as not taking care of any family obligations. I find Lucille’s products very helpful and especially it is relaxing to listen to her hypnosis programs. Thank you Lucille for your continued support of “your girls”!!
I first started to notice when I was 9. I wanted to dress like my sister, and also wanted her hand-me-downs, not my brothers. I believe that I’m intersexed, in that I love dressing up like a woman, but still desire them when I’m dressed as a man. However, when I’m dressed as a woman, i want a man so much that I get aroused when I’m near a man who I find intriguing.
Cheryl 🙂
me to!!!!
I’ve known since grade school. I used to wear my mom’s pantyhose and preferred Barbie dolls to other toys but my dad would make me do something else if I played with my younger sister’s barbies. If the internet was invented when I was growing up things would have been different for me and I’d have done this decades ago. I knew felt different. My father was very outspoken and harsh. Because of this have I have issues dealing with men. He always said I threw like a girl and criticized the way I played sports. I wasn’t any good at any sport. I found myself looking at the bras of young girls as they were dying on clotheslines as a kid. I was fascinated with them.
I knew at age 5 yrs, that something was wrong. I just thought I was weird, especially in the 1950’s. Used to sneak down stairs at night, in the cellar was a dresser full of nylons and slips, and girtles.
I was jock in high school. enlisted in the military, went to war. Married an had kids. Deep down I felt so hurt , that I couldn’t be who I knew I am.
Finally, in later years. I got to the point that something had to change. So saw a gender therapist, changed my name, and transitioned to full time. Started on HRT, 4yrs later, had my SRS. I couldn’t be happier.
I have not felt like a girl, but wish I was. Started with my feminine side very young, borrowing my sisters frilly nylon panties when I was 10.
50 years later, still into it and more dress up. Growing my boobs, but won’t be passable.