I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I guess I’ve had female tendencies as long as I can remember. Beyond wearing panties from time to time, I suppressed these urges my entire adult life.
About a year and a half ago I dressed as Dorothy from the wizard of oz for Halloween and it was as if a dam had burst.
I really liked it and told my wife I wanted to dress as a woman. She was very accepting and supportive.
The time since then has been a period of self discovery.
I’ve embraced that this is who I am and have never loved myself more. I underdressed 24/7 and get to fully dress a couple times a week.
Beyond the dressing my feminine side is now a big part of who I am. For me, being a girl is so much more than just the clothes I wear.
Like most of us, I discovered that I was a girl when I was 4 years old. I was just old enough to go to Kindergarten and discovered the world of young girls and realized that was where I belonged. I often played with the girls because the boys didn’t want me, I suppose that they knew that I was a girl as well. It was very hard to accept this back in the mid 1950’s when the world lived in the world of Ozzie and Harriett Nelson and Father Knows Best! Everything was perfect and there was no such thing as a problem with knowing what gender you were. The problem was that it did exist and wasn’t spoken about. My most favorite memory as a child was playing dolls with other school children and while at their house being allowed to dress as a girl, because the other girls insisted on it anyway! No problem on my part, I just wished that I could have gone home that way and tell my parents this was who I was, not a boy!
I was very young maybe 7 or 8 when I had feelings for the pretty things and wanting be around the girls and play their games. But I was the oldest of the boys and was strongly discouraged of these feelings. The feelings subsided but I began to be a loner I did things that were individual in nature such as individual sports and singing. Loved musicals and dancing but growing up these were not considered manly things to do. My female feelings grew stronger in high school but I didn’t understand what was going on and scared to share. This continued till later in life when I finally did research to figure out if I was gay or going crazy. I have been hiding for years until just recently when I came out to my wife. This is now taking me down a difficult journey of uncertainty to my future.
I knew I was a female at a young age (somewhere in the year 1958/5 yrs.’) but was having problems with home (step-dad/being schizoid) ..being forced to being a male, had to hide the emotions and feelings of who I was. In school I was diagnosed as being a (total) introvert for I did not want to connect with anyone for fear of being discovered. I never dated and stayed a virgin throughout my adult years. After my military career (20 year Navy) and after the 911 catastrophe I felt I had to just let it go, or I would end it all and decided to seek assistance.. I kept sneaking some form of female hormones from an early age, thought I would get caught via an urinalysis test (found that they only test for male hormones and narcotics). Just after my 50th birthday, I had a new one as a FEMALE having my surgery in Bangkok in June 2003. There are still issues I must deal with (size, voice and stature) but, life is a lot better now that I am not hiding any longer. And with sites, such as this, and the growing acceptance of the LGBTQI community in my neighbor hood, life was worth the wait.. Thanks “Lucille Sorella”
I have always know that I was me, but growing up in an LDS family never said anything, I remember when I turned 12 it was harder to hid, I wanted to play on the girls Volleyball team and basketball team but growing up in a small town did not for not wanting to get picked on.
I would only wear pantyhose from my aunt she never know or if she did never said any thing sometimes I would wear them all day under my pants. One time I spent the whole night in her pantyhose and some silk pj’s.
When I came home from my LDS mission I lived with her and would buy my own pantyhose, but would never buy any thing else.
Now I buy lots of stuff
i believe i was about 8 years. Old when i was young i would put on my sister pink dress. And would get under the cover and imagin sleep in it but before every came up to go to bed.I had to take it off and put on my own clothes. Thank You Lucille.
I remember asking my mother at age 4 why I couldn’t wear a dress to church like the rest of the girls. She told me I was a boy so I struggled with that all my life. After my boys were grown I set out in search of me. I’m in transition now and everyone close to me is OK with it. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been.
I first knew before kindergarten. I snuck in my mom’s bedroom when she wasn’t around and put on anything that was intimate and frilly. I even made my own bra since hers were way too big for me. Her girdles fit like a dress on me but I loved it.
I also had a girlfriend across the street that let me try on her clothes until her mom caught us and we were not allowed to play with each other anymore. It literally broke my heart!
When I hit puberty I was so disappointed in what was happening to my body. I coped by trying to go extreme macho which has never been me.
I have finally embraced the real me, and at 66 am trying to become who I really am, and the gender who I have secretly identified with all of my life.
I just wish I had more time left to be me.