I’ve observed that many crossdressers and transgender women recognize their gender identity at a young age. For some, it’s an early realization, while for others, it unfolds later in life.
I’m curious about your experience…
When did you first realize you were female or had a feminine side? Was this something you felt as a child, or did it develop over time?
I’d love to hear your story! Feel free share your thoughts in the comments below!
Love,
Lucille
I remember when I was small I played role play with my cousin sisters rather than cousin brothers. I almost always prefer to play the female role back then but was probably too young to know what’s going on. I came from a strict family and during school days I was always pre-occupied by studies and stuff.
I first found out when I was 17. Something just doesn’t feel right so I did my research and found out that I was a girl in a boy’s body. Now here I am, 24 years old, came out and fully embracing my feminine side and gender identity. Just waiting for the chance to transition to who I was meant to be.
I knew I was different at the age of 8. I put on a pair of my grandmother’s clip-on earrings and when I looked in the mirror I looked like a girl and I didn’t want to take the earrings off. I cried when grandma grandma called me and I had to take them off. The earrings felt right and I knew I was really a girl.
Like so many others I have known since I was young that I had a feminine side but it was kept inside. I grew up being a boy playing sports and eventually marrying and having 2 beautiful girls. We ended up divorcing but shared the parenting responsibilities. I use to dress them up very beautifully and did their hair and did girly things with them not realizing it was my inner woman acting out. Now 25 years later i have young ladies who have come into my life that I take on shopping excursions and the one store they insist on going to is Victoria’s Secret my favorite. when I started taking them there it triggered my inner woman to wake up. I started by lingerie on line one and a half years ago and now have a beautiful collection that i wear everyday under my guy clothes. I started on lucilles m-f program about the same time and I am presently at an “A” cup which for me is great. I am tall but sadly very skinny and it is very difficult for me to put weight on which is necessary for breast developement but I am very proud of my girls. The one sad part of my life is that I do have to keep everything secret since so many family live with me. Then about 5 months ago a young lady came to live with us and I am her guardian and it turns out she was a gift. one day about a month ago she was complaining to me about her breast size although i wasnt sure why because she is a 34 C but anyway I listened and then to my surprise I told her about Lucille’s program and she asked how I knew it worked and I took her to my room and showed her my collection. She understood and we proceeded to have a very long talk. Since then we have developed a beautiful closer friendship. She took me to get my first manicure and to get my brows done. actually we did it together. we will be heading to VS for more shopping on sunday as I need new bra’s and panties. She gets whatever she wants. I have been listening to Lucilles Hypnosis program and am looking to get the rest of them. It is slowly helping this 56 yo m/f feel more comfortable and eventually confident. The young lady has shown me creams to use to help my skin etc. I am not to concerned at this time about going out in full dress as a woman but that could change anytime. I very greatful for what Lucilles program has done for me and to have a place like this to speak and for the young lady. Hugs
I was around fifteen when I first noticed my feminine thoughts. I am Dana and after proving myself male I always found that I had feminine thoughts. I went to a holistic Doctor and he looked at my hormones. He said that I was very female. Yet I had normal testosterone and more female progesterone at eighty percent where taking any estrogen in on the diet had me mostly female. I am a DES kid where our mothers were given synthetic estrogen to stop miss carriages. This was in the early fifties. So as I had time to come to my feminine side I know I’m a half/half. Both sides of my brain works equally I look at it that it is a gift. I am in a heterosexual relationship and spend a half week crossdressing and enjoying both genders.
Hmmm, I recall when I was about 4 or maybe 5 I did want a doll. I also recall when I was about that age also where my mother dressed me as a girl for a photo, and again I dressed for a cub scout play when I was 7. But as for dressing with no real reason I think was about age 12.
I think my first time was about when I left the military. I had a tough time trying to find work, so I resorted to doing odd jobs just to earn spending money. Took one job cleaning a house (more accurately, an apartment) where the renters had been evicted, and the owners wanted it cleaned before they could put it back on the market. Like the majority of rooms in the apartment, when I opened the main bedroom door, it was mostly cleared out (just the bed and mostly-empty dressers and end tables), but the closets were still jam-packed full of clothes. Of course, I had grand aspirations of taking them to the local Goodwill, but something about the ladies’ clothes just spoke to me. Dresses, blouses, skirts, shoes…you name it, they were in there. Of course, the new owners said I could go ahead and keep whatever I found, so I loaded every box I could get hands on with clothing. The shoes didn’t quite fit (they were a little too small), but the skirts and dresses felt wonderful. I did sort everything out, and what I didn’t like, of course, went with the mens’ clothes to the Goodwill.
I’ve been doing so for over 30 years now 😀
I was six years old and was dressed up as a girl for Halloween. I had on stockings, a pretty dress, a beautiful wig that was my mom’s. I had on high heel shoes which I had no problem walking in. That got me thinking about it. Then when I was eight I was Peter Pan in the school play. I had to wear the green tights and I was not embarrassed. I loved it. After that I went into gymnastics. I have always thought of myself as a girl and I still do. Even more now that men look at me as a beautiful girl.
I discovered my femininity at the age of 7, when my mother was doing her makeup to get ready for work.
I ended up “borrowing” her lipstick and due to watching her apply it several times before, I picked up on it and was able to apply lipstick on my own lips. She caught me wearing it, and told me to remove it… so from that moment on, I always knew that I was born to be a woman. I kept my femininity hidden from my family for 19 years, until I turned 26. I discovered Lucille’s blog and took up crossdressing, I came out to my ex-fiancée and she was very accepting, she also encouraged me to come out to my friends and family on Facebook. So I say, thank you so much to Lucille for your tips and wonderful blog, and to those who supported me when I stepped out of the walk-in closet.
You are very lucky and beautiful too